A Glance

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Niall's pov
I just woke up to see harry next to me.
Wait? Harry? What happened last night?
Ohhhh I remembered!
ROSIE IS FUCKING PISSED OFF
I need to talk to her.
First of all I'm gonna say what happened as I remember
I was sitting in the club having a chat with cal, who was drunk as fuck, he said he wanted to bring drinks, I was drunk too though.
Then calum came with two girls, not drinks, the girl who was on my lap looked a bit like Rosie and the vision was blur from drunkenness, I felt like dancing so we got up and danced, then Rosie came AND BOOM.
That's all I remember, I took the Advil that was right next to me and went to the bathroom.
After getting out I shook Harry to wake up.
"Harold! Harold! Harold" he didn't
"HARRY FUCKING STYLES GET YOUR ASS UP" and with that he woke up, rubbing his eyes and yawning.
"Good morning" he said
"Morning"
"What's wrong with you man? I was having the best dream!"
"Sorry Harry, I just wanted to talk"
"My ears all yours"
I took a deep breath and started talking
"Harry do you remember what happened last night?"
"Not much, Why?"
"Rosie is fucking pissed off right now because there was a girl on my lap"
"Oh man, you're doomed" he patted my shoulder
"Thank you for telling me, I didn't know" I said sarcastically.
"Tell me what should I do harry? I can't love without her she's my everything"
"Niall look, what you did wasn't right, she trusted you and stayed with you and you cheat on her? Where are your Brains man?" He slapped the back of the head.
"I deserve this, don't i?"
"Yes you do." He said.
"And now by just sitting here Sir you're teaching her how to live without you."
"No no no no no, she belongs to me only."
"Niall women are complicated, but the problem is that women think men will change but they won't, and men make the mistake thinking women will never leave but they will."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean if she only wants you, don't worry about who wants her."
"Are you sure she still wants me?"
"Niall, Rosie isn't like that, Rosie stayed with you trough everything, I'm sure she'll understand when she listens the real story from you."
"You're right, I'm not wasting anytime, I need to talk to Rosie but first I need to do something."
"Go do it tiger, I'll be by your side"
"Thanks harry."
"Anytime Niall, Anytime."
I smiled at him and changed my clothes.
Here I come Rosie, here I come.
I walked into the living room to see the girls with angry faces, but Rosie and Hannah weren't there, oh well.
I approached calum's door and knocked hard.
"CALUM OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR"
He opened it and my fist met his cheek.
"You fuckin idiot! YOU CAUSED A FIGHT BETWEEN ME AND ROSIE BECAUSE OF YOUR INAPPROPRIATE BEHAVIOR"
"Woah calm down man, what problem? Come in."
I entered the room and sat on the bed.
"Yesterday when you brought the two fucking girls, someone snapped a picture of us and send it to Rosie"
Calum's jaw hung wide open.
"No way, I'm so sorry dude I-I didn't mean to."
"We were drunk man, it's okay but I need to find Rosie."
"Go find her dude, don't waste anytime"
"I'm sorry for hitting you cal, I was mad you know?"
He smiled and pulled me into a bro hug.
"I'm sure everything will be alright."
I hope cal, I hope.
I took Liam's car keys and drove to the only place Rosie would ever go, Starbucks.
~~Rosie's pov
I woke up next to Hannah, I missed Niall , I never thought I'd sleep without him, sleeping next to me, it felt strange and I hated it.
I decided to go to Starbucks with Hannah, i didn't want to stay in the apartment and see his face, I couldn't face him.
I really want to talk to him though, so I wrote everything in a letter.
I was having a chat with Hannah as I saw someone coming, it was him.
I started to panic, I just saw him and all the memories floated back.
Our happy moments mostly, we never had sad ones.
I already had the letter with me, I guess I'll give to him now.
He approached toward us and sat in front of me and Hannah.
"Niall what are you doing?" Asked Hannah
He gave her a smug look and said
"I need to talk to my girlfriend" he looked at me and my heart started beating faster.
"Well she's not your girlfriend, you broke her heart."
"That's something between me and her, don't butt in."
Hannah rolled her eyes and I squeezed her hand.
"Now if you may miss, we need to talk alone."
Hannah huffed and whispered in my ear that she's gonna sit to the table near us.
I nodded as she left.
"Rosie look, you need to Listen to me from the beginning to end okay?"
All I do was nod.
He started talking and I was listening obviously, i missed his voice, although we broke up just one day but still, he had a huge effect on me.
He was my half, and that what he'll always be.
"... And yeah that what happened, do you believe me?"
"Niall Of course I do believe you and everything but you broke my heart."
"Im sorry Rosie, I really am, I can't live without you, I swear, you're one of the best things that happened to me, i love you Rosie."
"Niall I"
He placed his finger on my mouth and shushed me, I melt for his touch.
"Niall please read this, it has everything I want to say"
"Fine but I wanna tell you something, I wanna tell you that I lost you so many times I lost count and I lost my head trying to find a reason I couldn't make you stay one fucking time and I lost myself trying to act that I could live without you and I lost a peace of my heart Everytime I watched you leave but I guess you took with you completely this time."
My heart ached, I couldn't speak, my tongue was tied..
I cleared my throat and croaked.
"Can you read the letter here please?" I asked tilting my head.
"I was planing to." He chuckled, his chuckle made me smile from inside.
"Okay let's start,
I was blind. Yes, I loved you, once. At that point I would've destroyed every blocking view or taken you to a whole different country with a different time zone just so you could see the sunrise.
I was absolutely and utterly in love with you, it hurt, but it was beautiful. It really was. Somehow, it was like you had compelled me and I ripped my heart out with no hesitation. It hurt, but it felt good to feel something. It really did, I think I was In love with the feelings you gave me, as well as you.
I think that was the only good thing that came out of me falling in love with you; feeling something.
I want everything back, I want everything I told you back, I need my soul back, my whole being back. Cause now I've been feeling nothing but emptiness; I never thought it could get worse than the way it was before I had met you.
You're a different person now I guess, or maybe I only had a fault image of you. I miss the fault image I had of you.
But goddamn it, you really meant a lot to me, you know that? I really would've done anything for you.I kinda miss that too, despite how badly it hurt.I think I already mentioned that, I can't think that you see, I can't breathe.
Sometimes I feel like waking up to you and spitting right at your face for the horrible way you broke that heart of mine that lies right in your hands.
And sometimes I wish it could've worked out, or maybe the fault image I had of you wasn't so fault.
Was it hard letting you go? It was and it wasn't because I miss you, because who you are right now isn't the one I miss, I don't know who are you anymore, but it was hard letting you go because you are this person who had became a huge chunk of my life.
You were the person who lit fires in the darkest parts of me, and then they had left me, the fires burned out and now I had a gaping hole in my heart, and this hard to let go.
It happens in stages really,I was on the floor of the bathroom begging God to bring you back to me. I think if anyone's experienced heartbreak you know how hard it is to do things without you.
It's entirely way hard to move on, and it's way hard to accept, but I loved you.
It also hard to grasp the fact that the person you had grown love to becomes a stranger to you, you don't talk to them anymore, but I hear about you and my stomach aches and I assure you, it won't feel well.
I'm sorry to tell you this, but you'll always have a spot in my heart, the hole you made I might give it a chance to be refilled by you, only you.
I truthfully don't think I'll ever let you go fully either."
He finished and looked at me.
"Im sorry if it hurted you Niall by the words I just wrote what I wanted to say."
"No no no no it's okay, you have every right to say everything you want cause I messed up."
"Yeah you did mess up."
"So there's no chance?"
"There is, but not now okay?"
He nodded understanding.
He got up and placed a kiss on my cheek, making me shiver.
I was weak when it comes to his touch and I hope when I give him a chance he'll not mess up.
I'm actually scared, yes scared cause he meant the world to me and he was everything I talk about, everything I need and everything I want.