A Glance

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Rosie's POV

"I got lost in him, and it's the kind of lost that's exactly like being found." I rubbed my face as I talked to Hannah and Halsey.

I'm completely bewildered, all i think about is Niall and luke, and Niall's been acting strange, he's not eating nor even sleeping. I wake up everyday alone in bed and when I enter the kitchen I see him sleeping on the couch with a beer bottle on his chest, his drinking habits are back, worse than ever.

"You care about Niall right?" Said Halsey

"What a smart question Hals!" Said Hannah sarcastically.

"Of course I do,girls, but I have mixed emotions, I've never been like this!"

"Rosie, let me tell you something, when you truly care about someone, their mistakes never change your feelings because the mind gets angry but the feelings stay the same." Said Hannah

"What do you mean?"

"Hannah meant that you may get mad at Niall or luke for their mistakes, but do you feel like your feeling change toward them?"

"In Niall's case, my feelings doesn't change, me and him have passed through hell of tough moments, in Luke's case, it's different, I mean he made hell of mistakes and I thought he would change but he didn't, and since then my feelings changed for luke." Said Halsey

"Ugh, your love life is a movie that I'm sure it'll make every one confused."

"I know girls, even I don't want to see it." I laughed, clearing up the mood.

"But let's talk seriously, what If Niall made you choose?"

"Choose what?"

"Either he'll make you choose him or luke."

"Well, I'm doomed."

After the chat with the girls I decided to have a cuddle with Niall, but more of a talk.

I entered our room and saw him looking outside the window, I tip toed as I wrapped my arms around his back, knowing he's calm down.

"Whatcha doin?"

"Just thinking."

"Of?"

"Everything, but mostly our love."

"Huh? I don't understand, Niall."

"Do remember the first night you said you loved me?"

"Ofcourse, but why you're asking?"

"Because from time to time I replay it in my mind, like my favourite scene from a movie."

"Aw that's sweet Niall, but why you're sad, is there something wrong?"

He turned his back to me, giving me his oceanic blue eyes of his.

"the color of your eyes were always something of a mystery to me, stuck somewhere in between baby blue and a deep Mediterranean, I never failed to get lost in them." I whispered as I kept looking into his blue eyes.

"I believe I can manage you weak with my blue bad boys huh?"

"Basically."

He gave me the cheeky smile and guided me to the bed, making my back hit the headboard, as he crawled between my legs, our faces inches apart.

"I miss kissing you." He pecked my lips.

"Those pink lips of yours." He pecked them again.

"If you really miss me, why you're sleeping on the couch then?"

"I feel like there's something different that's gonna happen to us, although I get jealous of the sheets that get to hold you and keep you warm all night, knowing that should be me, I want you to be safe."

"Safe from what?"

"That's a story for another time."

"Niall look, I'll be completely honest with you but don't be mad okay? I feel you're doubting our love." I said with a shaky voice.

"I won't be mad and you're actually right, and I'm sorry it feels like doubting our love, I've just been hurt so much before that I'm just waiting for another heartbreak."

"You think I'm gonna leave you?"

He nodded looking away.

"Niall look at me, I won't ever leave you okay?"

He grabbed my face and kissed my lips, and I let myself to be under his spell.

"Maybe I could swim into your mind like your drugs do." He breathed out.

"You don't have to, you're already my drug that distract me from this sick hell."

"And I'm glad."

"I love you so much Niall."

"I love you way more Rosie, way more."

"You're sure?"

" My love for you never ends, and it'll never fades, as long as I'm alive, I'll love you as long as I breathe, as long I have time left on this earth, and I swear I love you, that means I'm not just here for the pretty parts, I'm here no matter what, and for confirmation when I sat I love you more, I don't just mean that I love you more than you love me, I mean love you more than the bad days ahead of us, I love you more than any fight we'll ever have. I love you more than the distance between us. I love you more than any obstacle that could ever try and come between us, I love you the most." He said that as he wiped the tears from my eyes.

" I'm speechless,and the most comfortable place in the world is me & you, my head on your chest, feeling it rise and fall and listening to your heartbeat. Your arms wrapped around me, holding me so right, hold me tight and never leave me please."

" i won't leave, as long I'm alive."

With that, I felt my eyes fall slowly, but I caught some words which were:

"The game is on, either it's me or him, sleep tight princess."

The girls were absolutely right.