Nyctophillia | p.jm

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ANGIE 
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I gaze through the window, looking at the big shining moon up the sky. It's already midnight, but I'm still wide awake.

I feel restless, I don't know if I should to. My heart keeps on thumping fastly the more I'm thinking about it, the weirder my stomach gets.

My mind keeps replaying the scene earlier. It was fun, though Jimin annoyed me, but wasn't he amazing?

There is never, in my life; to know some place like that. Why did he brought me there? Why do I feel special.

I know Jimin is interested in me, but why? I'm just a girl in boyish looks. Does that even make sense?

My hair is getting longer, I didn't understand why I was relieved that it gets longer. I didn't want it to be long, but now I do?

Like what the fuck is wrong with me?

Ever since Jimin walks into my life, I realised; that I began to be girly. I wore dresses recently, I came back to my home, and I even starting to behave like how girls do.

I kept on squealing when I'm with him. And what I realised more; is that I smile more when I'm with him.

"Wouldn't it be great if I still have more time to be with him..", I sighed heavily, didn't realise tears trickling down my eyes.

Look at me now, why am I crying? There is no reason to cry, but why did my eyes forms tears?

"Why do I have to back to Hawaii?!", my heart just felt exploding, so I keep hitting my bed with my pillow.

I bit my lips when I heard my phone chimes, I look at the ID number, and seeing his name popped on my screen makes me smile.

"Hello?" I hurriedly answer his phone call, as I wipe my tears.

" oh? You're still awake? " my heart was itching, causing me to laugh. I love hearing his voice, he makes me smile.

But why?

Why can't Yunhyeong makes me feel this way before? What happened to me?

"I'm watching Walking Dead, rerun", was it necessary to lie? I bit my lips again, as he makes a joke about the walking dead.

I honestly don't know about the show, but I just mention it.

" You know what Angie? I know you're lying... The walking dead reruns ends earlier.., tell me. Are you okay? "

I sniffed my nose, what would I do without him? "Okay, I just can't sleep"

" wae? " I know right, WHY?! " should I sing you a song "

"Can you?" I heard him chuckling a bit, so I laughed it out too. Then I heard a music that I know.

" Tell me am I going crazy? Tell me have I lost my mind? Am I just afraid of loving " I can imagine his face while singing, those sparkling eyes staring at me.

"Or am I not the loving kind? Kissing in the moonlight, movies on a late night, getting old " he has sweet voice that makes me melt so badly.

" I've been there, done that. Supposed to be hot, but it's just cold. Somebody wake up my heart, light me up, set fire for my to soul, yeah " it's beautiful but also funny when he sings, because he still has his Korean tongue, listening to him speaking in English just sounded..funny.