Nyctophillia | p.jm

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JIMIN

         I could here the sound of crumpling, right to my heart. And it hurts, to know the fact that he's annoyed by me, and he wants me to stop talking to her.

But, then he came back and keep on greeting me. Isn't that stupid? What does he think am I?

I'm not weak, I mean I'm not vulnerable or a cry baby but, I have a fragile heart, like normal people does. I know what; Jungkook is feeling now.

Hyemi and Jungkook broke up, and now they needed my advice. Sure, I gave them but don't they know, how miserable I am?

Was it a wrong thing to have a crush on a guy?

Obviously, yes. What will my family say? What will the boys say? Shame, unbelievable, abhor.

I don't think I could forgive myself because of having feelings toward a milk boy. Like seriously? What the fuck is wrong with me?

For all these years, being the school flirt and being once a bad boy, like now I'm having a crush with the same gender? That is so not cool.

Why? The question to all of these are; WHY?

I sighed heavily before looking up the sky, "If the angel I wanted is actually a man... Dear moon, can you change him?"

(( Day Thirty-nine ))

      Watching these two with dark circles around them, just make me empty. I mean, both of them were those happy lovey doveys, but not anymore.

Jungkook looks very weak, I can tell that he haven't eaten yet. And, Hyemi looks very dead, pale skin, also dark circles and puffy eyes.

But what can I do?

And what even annoy me is; Taehyung is trying his best to get Hyemi's attention. But sadly, I can see how she's seriously not in the mood.

"So erm, I'm gonna go get uh a coffee. You guys want me to buy something?" I asked them, getting up from my seat. It's only Taehyung, Hyemi and Jungkook here.

Because the others are out for their part-time jobs. It's funny that; once their broke up; neither of them are getting out now.

I mean before this happens, Jungkook always like always went out, and Hyemi had her work as the barista in downtown's cafe. But now, she quit and Jungkook stopped having his time with that bitch.

"No" the three of them said, in unison. So, I just nod my head and take my wallet in my room.

~

I pushed the door as the bell chimes, I look around, unexpectedly to met him here, having fun with a group at the end.

But, I don't want to bother, so I just walk to the counter, and ask for a Black Forest ice blended. BUT! This eyes are too naughty to glance to her side.

He's beautiful, like a girl. How he laughs with his mouth gaped wide, and the way he clapped his hands, trying to hold his laugh.

Dear moon, do you think it's a good idea to walk up there and take his hand, pulling her out from here?

I guess no, hah I waited for, and minutes after my drink is already placed in front of me. I thanked her after paying, and walk out before he sees me.

I'm such a sad guy, who's having a crush with a guy.
 
Before I could walk any further, I saw Eunjin running in a hurry, with her face looks displeased. She holds her pursed, while try her best to run faster.