Nyctophillia | p.jm

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{ 10 months later }

Jimin

she was my sky, the one embraces me to feel the word; love. she was my sun, the one lift my lips to smile. she was my water, the one that lead me through pains and tears.

and she was also my moon, the one who fills my cup of heart with her love, the one who makes me realised that I can't live without her brightness.

she is Choi Angie, the one I thought a male, with a boyish attitude and crazy laughter. she is, the first girl I feel in love with, and she still is.

- I don't really mind, true it hurts that I had to leave her, but I must not look sad. so, every time I look up to the sky, I will always think that she's right beside me.

though it's delusional, but whenever I think it that way, I felt happy again, I felt nothing happened.

and the sun, when ever I look at the sun - well it's actually hard to look at the sun, it's too bright, but still whenever I look at it, I will smile as if she's hear telling stories and jokes.

also the water, even if I tried being happy, whenever I see water, she starts to cry in my head, and my heart suddenly crumpled.

and mostly, the moon. I would talk with the moon again, like I used to, like I always do. It feels great, because it's like she's close to me, right in my heart, smiling, also crying, laughing and loving.

the night, it always been the night. the beautiful night, makes me realised that every night, our ship will lands on our destinations.

and that one night, was the night we confessed, and we kissed too. it was our last night, as well.

I can't see her anymore, I know I shouldn't be sad, and I tried to open the door of my world without her.

the bangtan helped me a lot, well except Jungkook - he's living in a shitful of life past these months.

he haven't make up with Hyemi, and I was there, to helped them too.

but even so, the bangtan always makes me happy. their funny jokes, and crazy acts will never failed to make me happy.

my family, they are good.

and, Eunjin. yeah, the Song Eunjin, the girl Hyemi told me to be with - we became close friends now. It was weird for me, because she likes me.

she would always brought me anywhere, and I'll follow her anyway. She will also talk about herself, and stuff - which was about Yunhyeong, her brother.

and because Eunjin likes me, she will always said to me, that I should stop thinking about Angie. And somehow, I felt that she's right.

Yet, I still do.

everyone knows that first love, are hard to forget.

and because of that, I always got sleepless nights. and it sucks.

~