It was as if all the World just collapsed around me.
Nothing had any meaning anymore.
The only thing that kept my mind from flying away was his warm breathe, captivating my senses and his body pressed against mine.
I've never been aware of how much I needed that. How much I needed him to kiss me. How much I wanted to feel him close to me...
Several shivers were going through my whole body, as if his lips were releasing a powerful electric current directly in my veins.
After several seconds, I finally returned to my senses.
Gently, I pushed the palms of my hands against his chest, and broke the kiss.
We looked at each other and his eyes seemed watery, as if he was about to break down into tears at any second.
Why did he seem so sad ?
I stroked his cheek softly and as soon as my flesh made contact with his, he closed his eyes and sighed deeply.
I knew that he was fighting against his urge of pushing me away from him : He was hiding something.
He looked down and I tried to cross his stare.
« Michael... What's happening to you ? »
He suddenly scoffed, and looked at me dead in the eyes, with that cold stare I hated so much :
« So what ? You care about me now ? Well that's odd, cause I thought you didn't ! »
I rolled my eyes and sighed. I should have known that we were going to get into an argument.
He was still upset and he didn't have the opportunity to yell at me yet. It was predictable, after all. So I just managed to stay calm and wait for him to shout as loud and as much as he wanted to, hoping that he could be more relax afterward.
« Moon, damn ! How ?! How could you be so indifferent ?! I risked my life for you, girl ! And I currently still do ! Yeah that must be the worst... I risk my life for a girl that just doesn't care and I still do ! I killed someone to save you tonight. Are you aware of that ? Are you completely aware of that, huh ?! I could end up on an electric chair for what I've done ! I took someone's life because I preferred to be in danger that to know your life is threatened ! Moon, can't you understand that ?! How can you tell me that you don't care ?! »
I've honestly never saw Michael that mad before. I bit my bottom lip and waited some seconds to let him calm down and most of all because I needed him to let me explain myself.
« Michael... Please let me explain myself, you didn't understand what I tried to do... I have my reasons for telling you this. »
He stopped yelling, and even if he was still giving me a ferocious look, I knew that he was ready to listen to me.
We didn't share a real conversation for days, and even if he seemed ready to let me talk, I knew that he would certainly not believe my argument.
I breathed deeply :
« First of all, I want you to put yourself in my place. I was sitting on the ground, on my knees, with a psychopath behind me and he was threatening to kill you and Bill if you tried to save me... »
« We knew that from the beginning, Moon ! You should have let us take care of it ! We had the situation under control ! »
I couldn't contain a scoff :
« Sorry Michael but when I saw that bullet brush past your face of a matter of three centimetres or so, I didn't really have the feeling that you had the situation under control ! » I said sharply.
My tone was way more harsh that I wanted it to be. He didn't say anything, he just glared at me. I made him even more upset that he already was.
« However... About what I said...Well... I didn't think a word of it ! The only thing I wanted was to not see you wounded... »
He let out an unexpected laugh :
« Well sorry for my language, but you fucked up big times, girl ! Completely ! Words hurt too, Moon... YOU wounded my soul ! »
« Michael, words can't make people come back to life. »
He didn't answer.
Seeing that he was still quiet, I decided to go on :
« But the fact that you and Bill are still alive tonight proves that words can save lives. »
« And the fact that Vin is dead ? You forgot it ? The fact that I KILLED Vin ? The fact that he is dead because of me ? What kind of explanation can you give me for that action, tell me ? »
I opened my mouth to answer, but nothing came up. I didn't know how to explain Michael's act. I didn't know what to say to make it better. It was abominable and I couldn't make it look better, no matter what I could say.
I bit my lip and looked down.
« That's what I thought...I killed someone... Because I didn't want him to hurt you !! »
He was yelling at me again and I could feel warm tears pooling in my eyes, ready to fall at any minute.
« I didn't want him to shoot you, Michael ! I didn't want you to be killed ! Why can't you understand that ?! It's the only reason why I didn't keep my damn mouth shut ! »
Tears were now rolling down my cheeks, like water, and I didn't even bother to wipe them away.
« Moon, I was ready to die for you ! To die ! Just to know you're safe ! »
He slammed his fist against the wall behind me, with such a force that I could feel the vibration of the shock going through my whole body.
Any person having a healthy mind, or just wanting to stay alive, would have stopped to provoke him at that point, fearing of being punched in the face, but I wasn't. I took a lot of punches in my life, I wasn't scared of them anymore.
« And you thought I was not ready to do the same for you, huh ? I was ready to give up for you ! I was going to surrender and give my freedom up. I was going to let Vin take me and do with me whatever he wanted just to be sure that he would leave you alone afterward ! Like that he wouldn't have any excuse to come to your home, or kill all you bodyguards ! Like that he wouldn't try to hurt you or your friend anymore... »
Michael was listening to me attentively, glaring at me with clenched teeth. I knew he was battling against his urge to destroy the wall I was leaning on.
« And you know what Michael ? If this situation has to occur another time, then I would act as I did tonight. Because I don't regret it. I regret the fact that it offended you, that's true, I regret the fact that I had to lie to get what I wanted, but at least I got that thing I wanted : saving your life. I don't regret the fact that I preferred to save your life instead of mine. »
He stood quiet, processing what I've just said during a couple of minutes.
He was still looking at me and as usual I couldn't help but get lost in his beautiful brown eyes.
« Moon... » he said, with a harsh tone, snapping me out of my thoughts.
« Yes, Michael ? »
His facial expression changed once again : he had that cold, inscrutable and strict one.
« I think that it would be better if I just leave you here and that we never see each other again. »
And then, I heard my heart shattering into thousand of pieces.
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The Moon Is Shining (MjFantasy)
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