On The Inside

Done

(Trigger warning but I need this out)
Everybody always asking me, why you so insecure?
You're so pretty, you so strong, you're so beautiful.
I'm not.

And thanks to this asshole I'm worse.
And honey, don't feel guilty cuz you ain't the first.
You told me you'd be there when I needed you most.
And when told you, you couldn't handle it.
But I only ever asked for help when o really needed it.

And I'm sorry lately it's been more often than not.

You all have this image of me
So strong
So good
So pretty
I'm not.

Take a look on the inside
See the real me
And I can almost guarantee
You'll up and leave me
Just like everyone else.

So you know what?
I'm done.
I know I'm only 16
But don't come round near me with those
Love sick
Puppy dog eyes.
Cuz now I'm colder then mother fucking ice.
Don't touch me.
Don't try and hug me, you don't get that privilege anymore
And sadly neither does anyone else.
And when they ask me why,
I remember you and all of the others.
You broke your promises, broke my trust, broke my love
And in doing so broke me.

I know it wasn't even properly official
But you stepped away when I needed you most.

Guess I saw it coming anyway.
I told you, you wouldn't like the real me.
I told you.
I could have almost said it was a prophecy.
And guess what?
Like everybody else I get close to,
You get tired of me and you leave.

So boom
Done
I'm out.
I'm fucking sick and tired of all you assholes who wanna fuck me over.

I didn't want to play nasty bitter or spiteful.
But the gates are slammed shut and locked and I don't know where I put the key.
I'm sorry to everybody else who never meant no harm.

But I'm done.
My trust in anyone is gone.
I'm the queen of my castle and my demons are my best friends.