Choices

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*Recap*

"Oh cmon Mo, this again? It wasn't like that."

"Then what was it like? Cuz its always not like that with you. It's always 'a friend or someone that's not important.'" I quoted with my fingers, putting my juice down.

"But that's exactly who it is, a friend, someone who's unimportant."

"Then why couldn't you just answer the phone, in front of me? Obviously they're somewhat important if you gotta leave the room to answer their call." He stayed silent and looked irritated, but I didn't care. "Yea, ya ass quiet now."

"You know, something's changed in you towards me. You're distant. Cold. Always tryna argue something. We were doing fine before, but now you're just shutting me out. I don't know what I've done, but I'll leave you alone from now on, if that's what you want. Is that what you want? And do you know why I'd leave you alone? Because I care about your feelings more than mine. I love you. There. I said it. I would never let anyone or anything hurt you. I've never felt this way about anyone."

Monique Pov

"You don't love me, you just say that shit. You just say that shit to fuck with me. I really wish you wouldn't say that shit. You say you love me but I know you really hate me."

"Monique, I do really love you. You just don't love ya self enough to realize what's in front of ya ass." He sighs. "I think we need some time apart. I'm not saying we breaking up, but you need some time alone to figure ya self out. Cuz we can't move forward until you do. I'll see you when I do." He came up to me and pecked my cheek and left.

Trevaughn Pov

Why the hell did Mo have to be so damn stubborn? I thought as I shut my car door. I couldn't really blame her for being so inquisitive because I gave her doubts. I'm not cheating on her but, I do have something planned for her.

The so called strange calls and texts was my niggas E, Trav, and his girl Camille helping out also-cuz we needed a girls perspective-telling me how everything was going. They just so happened to call and text me when I was with Mo and I didn't want her to overhear or see anything that would spoil the surprise. I've been planning it ever since that day I told her that she was mines.

Hopefully when this is all said and done, we can get back together. But I meant what I said about her finding herself because she has some serious internal demons that she needs to battle. I mean who doesn't, some are just better at hiding it than others. Before getting on the road, I dial E's number.

"Yo"

"Whatchu got for me?"

"Ared so....."

Monique Pov

My eyes watered because I knew deep down that even though I doubted him, I couldn't live with him, but I refused to let a tear fall down. How dare he flip the situation and make me feel like I did something wrong?

But it's true though, I don't love myself, I never did. I just tolerated myself, just like everyone else has. So for him to love me, is hard to even imagine, yet alone believe. I guess I could try to find myself. But how do you find something you didn't know you lost?
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