The Project - Camren

Heartbreak

Lauren's P.O.V

So yesterday I got to know Camila a lot better than what I thought I would. We spoke about love and life and today we're going to talk about heartbreak. She was the one who decided on it. I've never been in love so I can't rally comment what it feels like to have my heart broken, but since she wants to talk about it I'm guessing she has.
I set up my camera and pressed record.

"So heartbreak." I say

"Do you want to go first?" She asked in her sweet angle like voice.

"I've never had my heart broken. I've never even been in love, so I can't really say anything." I answer truthfully.

"That can't be true."

"Why can't it?"

"Because you must have. I don't even mean in a romantic interest. I mean it could be friends, family or whatever. It don't have to have anything at all to do with love."

" Well, then I guess I have. I remember the first time, I was 8 and it was late at night. I woke up from my parents arguing, they were shouting really loud and at my age I was terrified. It was also Christmas eve and in the morning I ran downstairs only to find my mum there. I asked where my dad was and she said he had business to take care of. I never saw him again after that. I just wished that he had at least said goodbye to me and my brother and sister."

"I thought that you lived with your dad?" She asked curiously.

"He's my stepfather, but I class him as my real Father because he hasn't given up on me and he took the responsibility of us kids. I'm forever grateful of him and it my eyes he is my real Father." I looked down at my hands not realising that I had been playing with my fingers.
"Erm, your turn."

"Well, my first heartbreak was a romantic one. It was 2 years ago with this boy called Jacob. We were together for about 1 year and 3 months until I found out that he had cheated on me. Me being the stupid naive girl forgave him until he cheated on me again. I don't really think it was the cheating that hurt the most but the lack of trust and respect. Jacob was my first everything. My first boyfriend, my first kiss and sadly my first heartbreak."

I feel like I need to ask her about the rumors about her sleeping around, but what if it ruins everything?

"Camila, can I ask you something?"
She smiles softly and lightly nods.
"The rumours about you having sex and being a sl... and being a word a don't feel comfortable saying about you." Her smile fades instantly and I can see the pain in her eyes and I instantly regret asking.

"Is it true? Yeah it it. I lost my virginity to Jacob and after he cheated on me I started going to party's and got drunk. The first time it happened I was disgusted and ashamed of myself, but then It started happening frequently and I sort of gave up on respecting myself. My mum found out and banned me from going out of the house. She only recently has been letting me out because of this project. Me sleeping about stopped months ago and I thought the rumours did too, but I guess I was wrong." I could sense the lack of confidence in her voice and it broke me. I guess this is my first romantic heartbreak. I mean, you could call it that right?

"I'm sorry for asking, I shouldn't have."

"Lauren honestly it's fine. This is what this project is for. For me to get to know you and for you to get to know me. I wanted to tell you because I don't want you to think of me as everyone else does."

"I could never think of you as what other people does."

"And why is that?" She asked.

"Because you're different. A good different.

Writers note

Sorry that this is short. I just though that this chapter needed to be done so I thought it would be easier just to do it and get it out of the way. Please give me feedback because I'm not sure if I should carry this story on or not.
Anyway, I hope you all have a good day/night!