Sad eyes (Baekhyun FF)

Regrets

Did I make a mistake?..
Maybe I should have thought over my decision..
But now it is too late anyway.
I was laying in my usual bed, I had in the hospital and stared at the ceiling.
My condition went bad drastically.
Maybe it was because of the sleepless nights I had or because I felt regret over my decision.
Now I had to stay in bed for more than a month.
Sang-min would come over every day, sometimes he would bring me some flowers, that's why my nightstand is full of many different flowers.
It was nice of him, but it wasn't surprising. Sang-min was worried about me, he tried to cheer me up, hoping that my condition will go back to normal.
He was actually just hoping that I wouldn't die, just like my parents. As soon as my condition went bad, they also came over every day, asking me if I want new stuff or if I had specific wishes.
There was one wish, I wanted to see Baekhyun, but he didn't visit me once.
Maybe that was also the reason I started to feel worse than before.
The door went open and once again it was Sang-min, with a handful of flowers.
"Hey! I found this new flower shop and I just had to buy these, look how beautiful they are!" Sang-min smiled at me and placed the flowers into a vase, which actually was full with other flowers.
"Sang-min, you don't have to do this.. I'm okay, don't waste your money for flowers which will die here in the hospital anyways.."
"Ya! Don't say stuff like that and they weren't that expensive..." He mumbles and sat down on the chair beside my bed. "Anyways, how do you feel?"
"As always." I answered.
"Still?" He sighed. "Will you finally tell me what happened with Baekhyun?.."
As soon as Sang-min said his name out loud, I felt like crying. Remembering what had happened that day.
"He asked me if I wanted to go on a date with him... And I said no... I really wanted to say yes, but I didn't want him to get kicked out of Exo... After I said no, he told me it's better if I leave now and that we shouldn't meet anymore..."
Sang-min immediately groaned annoyed. "That's all? That is why you're conditions are so bad? Because of an Idol... There are so many guys and you run after an idol?.. If he doesn't treat you well because you turned him down, he isn't worth it!"
Sang-min was right, but I just couldn't forget Baekhyun. I really started to love him, even if it sounds stupid or just like a fangirl running after her Bias. It's not like that, I started to love the real Baekhyun, not the Idol.
But I guess that doesn't matter anymore, I completely lost him.
I looked away and shrugged.
"Byeol, if he doesn't text you, call you or visit you in this week, you will forget him, okay?" Sang-min looked serious.
I nodded, whispering an "okay".
He stood up. "I'll leave now, still have to finish homework, please get well soon.." He grabbed his bag and then left.
I looked at my fingers and started to tear up.
He is all I ever wanted..
I ruined it..
I wish I would have said yes..
The door opened and the nurse came in, doing her daily check up. When she was done, she turned on the TV, switching to my favorite show and then left again.
I was watching the show for quiet a while, when suddenly Exo appeared on the show.
I was about to turn off the TV, when I noticed that Baekhyun was missing.
Where is he?..
I watched the whole show, waiting for Baekhyun to show up, but he didn't.
When the show was done, I turned off the TV and lay down my bed.
Is he okay?
Is this my fault?
Where is he?..
I couldn't think of anything else, so I took out my phone and stared at Baekhyun's number. I wanted to call him, but I was scared, my whole body shivering.
I can do this..
I pressed the call button and waited for Baekhyun to pick up, but I just got connected to his mail box.
"Hey, here is my Mailbox, at the moment I can't talk, I'll call you back later. Have a nice day~~~"
I smiles lightly.
He is really cute..
I called him over and over again, only because I wanted to hear his voice in the mailbox.
I called a last time and then put my phone away.
This has no use.. I should really stop..
I lay to the side and look out the window.
"It's raining.." I whispered to myself.
I sighed.
Why does love hurt so much?
I closed my eyes and slowly fell asleep.

Next day

I slowly woke up and looked at the clock.
12 am.. School started long time ago..
I stood up and got dressed into my usual clothes. I sneaked out the hospital and walked to the bus stop, taking the bus.
This is stupid, he will kick me out for sure...
When I finally arrived at Baekhyun's Cafe, I took a deep breath and walked in.
Please don't kick me out..
I looked around, searching for Baekhyun.
Where is he?
I went to the counter and talked to his mother.
"Is Baekhyun here?" I asked silently.
"Oh, no, he is practicing in the SM building!" She smiled lightly. I thanked her and then left again. Walking to the bus stop.
I didn't think that he would be practicing, stupid me.
I drove back to the hospital.
I'll just visit him tomorrow...