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Jacks pov

"G what are you doing here?"

"Came to visit Gianna."

"I can see that, why are you in California?" He smiled. "I'm here with my girlfriend, Madison."

A/N- I love Madison will all my heart got a problem leave :))))

"I think you should leave." I said, after a long pause. He shook his head. "No. High school is over. I wasn't there for her when she needed me. So I need to be here now."

"But she doesn't need you now!" I shouted, suddenly angered by him being here. "She needed you and you left her to hang out with some pieces of shit! You knew what she was going through! Yet you left. You left her standing alone, with a blade and some pills!" I shrieked. Guilt flashed before his face. He set the flowers down on the nightstand. "I will come back another time." I said quietly before exiting the room.

Giannas pov

The subtle sound of beeping was the only thing my ringing ears heard. Faint words began to enter my ears, but nothing of the conversation interested me. It was muffled and almost painful to listen to. It felt as if my heart and brain were in two different places. Like my brain was wandering but my heart was trudging slowly behind, wanting to stop. My head pounded yet my chest heaved painfully.

The darkness surrounded my like a blanket, comforting. My head replayed so many memories. Between the laughs me and Ang shares to the love me and Jack shared. All of the pranks me and Shawn did; all the movie nights and nights out. They were almost too painful to remember. Because even though the darkness acted as a blanket, it shielded me from the ones I love. Sparkling blue eyes were the sight that I missed the most. Seeing Jack.

Suddenly, I heard Jack. "Hey baby girl." The sudden speech from him made my heart increase, catching up with my brain. This was even more painful, and I wished I could make it stop. "Please wake up. We...we will do something when you come back. I will do something for us. Ang is better now. Her and Shawn are home right now. I'm still here though. I always will be." His soft voice rang through my ears and I wished more than anything to see his soft blue eyes gazing gently into mine.

But somehow I thought that wouldn't be for a very long time.

Jack G's pov

"Hey Madison." I greeted my girlfriend with a small peck on the cheek. "Hey. Where have you been baby?" My smile that was once on my face disappeared. "Just visiting a friend in the hospital." She frowned slightly. "I'm sorry baby. What's their name?"

"Gianna."

Madison's pov

Gianna? No way. Did they have a thing? Holy shit they so had a thing. "Ex girlfriend?" I asked, a hint of jealously in my voice. "No, we were best friends." I nodded slowly, pursing my lips. "She was a bitch just like her mom." I mumbled under my breath. "Her mom is dead." He stated firmly, clearly disgusted with my comment. I hated her. We were friends. And then she started cutting. She was so selfish! I never talked to her again after that. But then she started dating Jack. He was so hot. So I made him date me. And apparently they are back together now. I don't understand how this dumb bitch isn't dead yet. But when I'm finished, she will be six feet under.
I will make sure of it.

Giannas pov

I really wished when you were almost dead they had social media. I mean, I really need to watch some Connor Franta right now.
The darkness was almost boring at this point, causing me to wish to see the light of day I usually hated. When I saw the sensation of light, I would roll over and groan. But the funny thing is that now I yearned for it. I yearned for the burning pain to be gone. I yearned for the sight of my friends, my boyfriend. Every once and awhile I can hear Jack, but other times it's as if I'm underwater, and hear nothing but the sound of my pounding heart and the obnoxious beeping that never stops. I have heard Jack singing lately, and it makes me want to just open my eyes right then and their. The tune is the only thing that keeps me sane, causing me to focus on it often. He only has a few lines of the first verse, but it makes me happy to hear it. And I can't even imagine what he's going through from the lyrics.

When the tides hit you straight in the face, life is getting harder treading water got no where to go.

And as the time slips away day by day stranding in to ocean every open door has now been closed.

But again, every time I hear his voice, all I can see is those piercing blue eyes.

Those piercing blue eyes that are probably filled with pain because of me.