Depression And Hate Poems

Chapter 50...My Feeling Towards You

Behind your shadow,

I stand and fall.

It's a tough battle,

In which I feel so small.

My feelings toward you

you might think are dumb.

Sad, upset, confused,

angry, hurt, and numb.

When I needed a mom,

you were not there

to talk about boys

or to fix my hair.

Yes, you did call,

every once and a while,

but an ocean of tears

hides behind this smile.

Tormented, trapped, and torn,

my heart says I feel.

Seven years after I was born

my heart won't start to heal.

I see other girls

laugh with their moms,

I go dizzy with swirls,

and crash like a bomb.

The anger in me

rages in fright,

always staying angry,

I just think I might.

Time heals everything,

I don't think that's true,

I know something

time did not do.

Time has been flying.

For a long while

I've always been trying

to show a real smile.

One thing that hurts,

and I don't know why,

you moved far away,

and it makes me cry.

When I think about this,

to myself I lie,

I've gotten over you,

that I would not try.

You are a mother,

a mother of two,

me and my brother.

We hardly know you.

Every night I think

of how my life could've been,

tears run down my face,

and my world starts to spin.

These past few years

have been really hard.

For the rest of my life

I'll be severely scarred.

It took me time to realize

what you did to me.

Tears in my eyes,

and you're clueless it seems.

I try to be brave,

it really hurts.

You could've stayed,

instead of making it worse.

I want you to know this,

it's sad but it's true,

you hurt your little girl,

and your little boy too!

You ruined me,

you made me cry,

you really hurt me,

and to laugh I try.

There is a hole in my heart

the doctors don't see.

I guess they don't know

what my mommy did to me.

If you want me back,

you have to prove

you can be a mom

to me and Andre, too!

When I screamed for you,

did you hear a sound?

I guess you didn't,

because you were never around.

I will tell you something

you cannot forget,

once you hurt your kids,

it will soon come to regret.