SEXUALITY // ASHTON IRWIN

FOUR

The bird chirping outside caused me to wake up, I honestly wanted to kill them right now like always. It was a Saturday morning, meaning I could sleep in but those birds always stopped me from doing so. Looking at the time on my phone, it was ten in the morning, I could of slept for two more hours no thanks to those birds.

Getting up from bed, I did my morning stretches and got into the shower to wake me up a bit more. After having that shower, I got out changing to a pair of black skinny jeans, white crop top and a pair of black vans. This was what I usually wore no matter what, it was comfort and causal as well looked quite nice.

As I got into the kitchen, I saw her parents out the backyard eating breakfast. Getting some cereal in a plate, I as well went outside to see my parents and spend some time with them, since I didn't really talk to them since the day I had came out. "Hello mum and dad," I said taking a seat putting a spoonful on cereal in her mouth.

"Oh good morning dear," my mum stuttered as she was saying that. Of course it meant that she wasn't comfortable around me after what had happen two nights. I gave a short break to my parents thinking that maybe that my mum and dad would have changed things a bit, but of course it was didn't, it was the Hanson family.

The Hanson family -my family- were rich but didn't want anything to ruin their reputation especially having a daughter who was lesbian. It's was something everyone hated in there position, all of my parent's friend were exactly like her parents, so I wouldn't be surprised if they didn't tell them that I, their daughter was lesbian.

"So how are you?" my dad asked without looking from the newspaper. Was it because he was ashamed of I was homosexual and not wanting to look at her? That was probably why but in all honestly I didn't mind, it just meant I had to work harder on this plan, it will change this one day.

"I'm good I guess, just got up you know?" I said with my mouth filled with a spoonful of cereal. Swallowing the food down my throat, "What about you guys?"

"We're good too," my dad answered for both my parents. After that really short conversation, silence was surrounding us. Neither of us knew what to talk about, it was awkward for all of us.

A beep came from my phone, I took my phone out of my pocket and turned the lock screen seeing that I had gotten a text from Calum. Unlocking my phone, I read his text message that was sent to me, 'Just reminding, my party is tonight. You better come, I will not take no as an answer. So see ya then'

Honestly I had completely forgotten about how Calum invited me to his party yesterday for his party that was on tonight. He probably felt sorry for me, that's why he invited me. I mean nearly everyone -excluding those people who were homophobic- were felt sorry and bad for me, it was nice of them for caring but I didn't care in all honesty. But the thing is, I didn't want to go, I just wanted to stay at home in the quiet of my room and watch some movies.

If I do go, I would be able to start off my plan even more. So of course I had to go, but I wasn't going to go alone. I needed someone to go with, I mean yeah Calum was going to be there but he wasn't going to spend the whole party with me, he'll be with some girls sucking their faces off.

Knowing probably Joseph wasn't invited, since it was Calum's party and he hated Joseph cause he hated and treated him shit after what Calum had done to Joseph. I felt like it was good to invite Joseph to come, hoping that he'll come even though it was Calum's party. Joseph was my one friend that I could take. I did have Vicky but she is always busy on the weekends since she'll be at her dad's house then.

"Hey mum and dad," I said causing them to give their attention to me, well sort of giving me their attention since they were both looking at the newspapers or their phones. "Can I go to a party today?" I asked hoping that they would. They knew I hated parties, so they were kept shocked when I asked to go to a party.