I fell out of love
like a leaf from the trees,
crisp autumn breeze on my back,
anticipation in pointed toes ,
and vanity painted black like the sun.
"better run," my sister said to me
I didn't see the hell ahead
just kept you in my mind,
I really couldn't have known, could I?
Shoulders shaking, muscles breaking,
I've been feeling pretty weak
rolling through my sheets just trying
to get those damn kids off my mind ,
just trying to find
a little high-strung healthy peace,
because you all make sick
with loneliness, you know that right?
Oh the early
morning pains are almost too much,
I can't touch
the deep end of this pool anymore,
the sea I love is drowning me,
faces swimming past,
they don't care, not really,
my friends must think
I've turned to dust.
And my pretty girl's gone and
grown up on me,
she walks down those halls
like a broke neck queen,
and she's got punch drunk boys
falling flat at her feet,
moths flying into her light, she fights
so many battles in her
head held high and
I like to think that she needs me.
But she doesn't really need me.
Nobody really needs me anymore.
I remember when
I thought I was special,
dressing like beat down ghosts girls
my rhymes were all shit,
let's be honest,
my timing was fucked up but it wasn't nearly as bad as yours.
Old Friend, you should
write me a poem sometime
or do you even read these anymore?
My chest aches my
head shakes, a vehicular buzz,
dreams of driving away
plague this miserable mind
every night every day,
cause I'm thinking that I don't belong.
when he "whisked me away"
he didn't mean it.
when you asked me to stay
you didn't mean it.
so don't you dare
have something to say
I'm done with your stories
and I'm over your pain,
I'm thinking maybe
I'll just sleep through
this sad love affair for
the next week or two, and don't
worry bout my tiger stripes
cause they've never been new
and I'm not still in love,
I am just feeling blue.
