The Randomness of Rainbow Phoenix

my lovely emetophobia

I did not have a very good day at school

It was okay until I went through the canteen (where you buy the food) at first break, and the smell made me feel extremely nauseous.

It wasn't a bad smell, it was just the smell of food, and it made me so nauseous that I started to panic.

I looked into it later and it turned out I have emetophobia (fear of being sick.) This operates a lot like a panic disorder: I feel a little sick, and my brain overreacts and makes me panic.

If I don't get cured of it fairly soon, I could become an anorexic... Ugh, I don't know. I'm feeling pretty sick right now, but it usually passes. This is really stressful for me, and I don't really know what to do....

If I do get anorexia, I promise you all I will not self-harm or anything of the sort. My mom and dad don't really think I have a phobia, but I'm pretty positive that I do. We're working to bet it, but right now, it's not really certain wether we'll succeed or not.

I'll be going to the doctor in a couple of days if the emetophobia doesn't improve. I'll update you all on my status then.