The Hard Choices of Life

(8) What are you afraid of?

(Flashback)
"So what should we watch?" Asked Sam as he eyed the shelf filled with movies and TV series.We could say his parents love that stuff. I was spending the night at Sam's since we had a project together. We finished the project early and now we were picking something to watch in the living room.

"I don't know." I ran my finger through the DVD boxes. "Revenge?"

"Agh, no. Big Bang Theory?" He said with a wide smile.

"I like it but no."

"But Maaay..." He whined as a little kid I took candy from. " I wanna watch that"

"Maybe we can..." Something spotted my eye and I took it out of the shelf. "Once Upon a Time!"

"No"

"But Sammy-puff..." I did the best sad face I could.

"Mom is like obsessed with that right now"

"Then let's watch it.."

He sighed. "Fine"

I jumped over to the couch as Sam putted in the DVD. Then he sat next to me and we started watching the first episode.

"You do realize I can't watch something without popcorn right?"

He laughed.  "On it." He said as he went to the kitchen to make popcorn.

Five minutes later he came back with a bowl of popcorn in hand. He handed it to me and sat down. We watched OUAT for a while.Maybe three hours or four. We took like five trips to the kitchen taking turns to get sweets and drinks. Then when he came back from the fifth trip, he looked rather serious for Sam.

"Sam what's wrong?"

"I'm tired." He said.

"Then we can stop watching and go to sleep." I responded.

"No May Lee, it's not that kind of tired" He sat down.

"Then what do you mean?"

"I have had to pretend I don't like you for so long May. I really like you. I can't keep it inside me anymore, I have to let it out somehow."

"Sam...you know what I think about that."

"I know that you don't want to ruin our friendship if we don't work out being together but...can't we atleast..." He close to me. "Try?"

Sam... I don't want to risk it"

"May what are you scared of?" He came even closer. My back was glued now to the seat and his hands were resting on the sofa close to my shoulders. "Are you scared of being loved? Are you scared I won't love you truthfully? Are you scared I will break your heart? Because trust me, I won't break your heart. I will let you break mine in to millions of pieces but I won't break yours."

That's when it happened. He leaned in, lifted my head up with his fingers and brushed his pinched rose lips againce mine.

"Sam.." I moved back. "I'm not ready for this"

"May have it for granted. I'm sick of hiding my feelings toward you, I will show you how much I love you every chance I get to show you how much you mean to me. Until you realize how much...how much I..."

"Sam please" I got up and brushed my hand on his cheek. "Give me time"

"Okay"

And with that I went upstairs and went to bed.

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(Present)

"Sam..." I said in between the kiss.

"May don't." Sam broke the kiss and looked at me. "Tell me, what's holding you back from us being together?"

Oh well, first off I was secretly dating James after we first kissed and two now I'm torn between two guys who to my disgrace are my best friends.
"Sam I have things to figure out. We have been friends for a really long while but if you want to be with me you would have to give me time to think and you'll have to be patient because I have something's to figure out."

He sighed. "Okay" He said as he kissed my forehead gently.

"Now could you carry me to my house? My legs are too tired to walk."

" You always such a lazy butt aren't you?" He laughed. " I might seem strong but I'm not that strong."

I sat up. "ARE YOU CALLING ME FAT?!"

"No sweetie. I'm just saying you have a very weak best friend who only uses his strength for video games"

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"Oh Marcus" I sighed. "Could you please just stop for a second?"

"No can do.." He sang.

It had been almost half and hour of lunch time and Marcus got the singing buzz today. He had been all day singing songs of Taylor Swift and just wouldn't stop.

"Someday I'll be living in a big old city..." Started Marcus.

"And all you're ever gonna be is mean.." Continued Pansy.

"Oh no, you too?" I looked at Pansy with my crazy look.

She nodded. "Yeah,yeah...SOMEDAY I'll BE BIG ENOUGH SO YOU CANT HIT ME AND ALL YOUR EVER GONNA BE IS MEAN" They screamed the lyrics at the top of their lungs.

James was walking toward us. "What the he..?"

"WHY YOU GOTTA BE SO MEAN" They sang in unison and pointed at James.

"Okay then" Then James turned to me. "Mrs. Simons wants to see you."

"Why?"

" I have no idea. She didn't say anything to me so I wouldn't say it's good news"

I frowned at him. "Well I will thank you very much if you got our food when it arrives" I looked at Pansy and Marcus as they continued to sing. "Because I'm pretty sure they won't go and get it"

"Okay" he smiled with that cheeky smile of his, as I walked off to Mrs. Simons classroom.

As I was walking down the hallway I couldn't help but notice a blond haired, slim figured get pushed up against the lockers by the lead jock from the football team. As I looked closer that face looked very familiar.
Amber.

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