The Band Room

Chapter 11

Dear Baekhyun,

I'm sorry to do this to you. I have been putting this off for as long as I could. I was going to do it that day in the band building, but I heard you singing. Your singing interested me. I wanted to know the person the voice belonged to. I wouldn't have made it this long without you, Baek. I want you to know that. I am so happy that I got to meet you. You are truly an amazing person. You are the first person to actually make me feel. I know you aren't really used to seeing me as anything other than "Happy Virus" however, that nickname is just a facade. Everything I am is fake. The only time I ever felt as though I was a real person, was when I was with you. I want to thank you Baekhyun. Thank you for helping me hold on for as long as I did. You prolonged my life without even realizing it. You truly are an amazing person. You made me the happiest I have ever been, and I hope you feel the same. Listen, I know that you will probably wonder why all this is happening, but don't. I don't want you to worry. I want you to continue on with your life. Find someone and make them happy. Always look up and remember me, okay. Not as "Happy Virus" or anyrhing like that. Remember me as your friend. Your REAL friend. The one who cared... the one who will ALWAYS care. When you look back on who I was, look back and see the good, don't question what you could've done better. You did everythig right. Don't blame yourself for this, okay Baek. And if you choose to blame yourself, then blame yourself for helping me. For keeping me strong for so long. Thank you for prolonging my life. Thank you for giving me a chance and thanks for letting me know you. I love you Baekhyun.

Your First REAL Friend,
- Chanyeol

(P.S.) You can listen to the CD now. I'm sorry I kept it from you, and made you wait.

~ i cried a little while writing this~