The Bad Boy's Game. [COMPLETED]

Chapter 22.

                  

Jamie's POV.

I'm a mess. A fucking mess are the words to describe me. I miss her touch, her smile, her laugh. I miss her so much. I had to do it otherwise she would be in constant danger. I watched as she dropped on her knees begging to for me not to leave her. It took everything in me to run back and hold her in my arms forever. It was my fault she got kidnapped. My fault she got beaten. My fault she got shot. And I could do nothing about it.

The way she paled in my arms and her heartbeat slowed down. I didn't even realised I was crying. I wiped my eyes from my tears and grabbed another bottle of alcohol. It was the only way to forget her. She was everywhere, everything reminded me off her. I couldn't sleep because either it was a nightmare or a dream yet she would be right there.

I had Ryan look out for her in case anything bad happened. I haven't seen light in ages. I was cooped up in this dark room drinking my life away. I stumbled my way into the dimly lit bathroom and looked at myself. I had dark black bags under my eyes. Tear tracks stained my face. I love her so much it hurts.

I heard the door open and in walked Ryan.

"She was at the beach since around 3am and left at 6:30am" He said.

"Was she okay?" I asked quickly.

"She was fine. It started to rain but she stayed were she was. She was slowly turning blue but I think she saw me when she was walking home" He rushed out.

"She wasn't always the wisest one" I chuckled lightly. "Thanks man, and can you get me some more alcohol" I asked him.

He shook his head, "As your bestfriend man, I'm not doing it. I'm sorry" He walked out the room.

My P is my happiness.

I needed more alcohol. I walked out of the room and tried to find some members walking around the warehouse.

"Danny my man" I shouted.

"Yes boss?" He said.

I slapped £40 into his hands. "Can you get me some more alcohol please"

"Okay boss" He nodded and walked out the warehouse.

I walked back into the room and lay down on the bed. I soon fell asleep.

"Hey baby I missed you" She kissed me lips.

"I know but I'm back" I said on her lips.

"Well the kids are out back with our parents" She chuckled.

I was walking out to the garden. I stopped and turned around watching her sway her hips to the music in the kitchen.

"Hey Penelope?" She turned around and faced me.

"What?" She chuckled.

"I love you" I ran out the kitchen and saw my children playing on the grass.

"DADDY!" They squealed.

The earth started to shake and crumble in the middle of the garden. I was shouting for the kids but they weren't listening. I tried to grab them but I couldn't reach. I watched as they all fell through the hole.

"No please come back" I ran into the kitchen and saw Kane holding a knife at Penelope's throat.

"I love you okay Jamie" I shook my head. "Say it back" I shook my head again. "SAY IT" She screamed.

"I LOVE YOU" I watched as Kane slid the knife across her neck.

I woke up covered in sweat, breathing heavily.

"It wasn't real. It wasn't real. She is safe now." I put my hand in my hands bringing my knees up to my chest.

I looked over and saw the alcohol. I stumbled over there and grabbed the first bottle, ripped the top off and downed it all.

I've been waiting in this chair for over 4 hours waiting for Ryan to return. Speak of the devil.

He walked into my room out of breath. He held onto the door frame trying to catch his breath.

"She" He took in a deep breath "Saw me" He said breathless.

"You idiot" I stood up.

"But I ran away so we are good" He smiled up at me.

"Anything new?"

"Yes, she was dressed like a model. She was receiving wolf whistles, then got asked to prom but some dude Ethan. She wore booty shorts and a tank top for PE. Then handed Lily her ass back and broke her jaw" He said.

"She never liked the PE uniform. And Ethan asked her?" He nodded. I swung my fist at the wall and hit it repeatedly.

I felt Ryan hold me back. "Man stop it!" He pulled me to the bed and put me on it.

"You need to get yourself together and man up. You need her, look at yourself." He said then walked out of the room.