Heart (A phanfiction)

chapter 1

Become who you are

Dan stared at the alarm clock that was before his face on his desk. 9 minutes until he had to get up. He willed it to go back a few hours but it stayed the same. Tired and scared. He thought of ways he could get his Dad to believe that the time had miraculously gone back 3 hours but he obviously knew this was never going to happen.

Dan gave up and swung his legs over the edge of the bed. He looked down at the plain grey pyjama bottoms he was wearing.

He was boring. Boring and terribly alone. He hoped the alone part would change because of his new school, new life. He missed Jude.

Jude was his brother and he wanted to be there for him right now. But really Jude isn't just his brother, he's his best friend too. He's struggling with his sexuality but Jude knew that he was super gay for this Connor kid.

He sighed. Get up Dan. He told himself but the problem was simple. He didn't feel up to it.

"Dan! Please get up." Dan's dad walked through the door. "Oh you're awake." His dad made an impressed face. But as soon as Dan's dad made eye contact with him, Dan burst into tears.

"I don't want to go today." Dan's Dad immediately ran over to him. He hugged him and rubbed his back.

"Tell you what." Dan's dad started. "You snuggle back down and I'll go make you a cup of hot chocolate." Dan gave his dad a smile. He always knew how to cheer him up. "I don't wanna force you into your first day back at school." Dan sighed at the word "back" because technically he wasn't going "back".

Dan was about to close his eyes when the door bell rang. He heard his Dad's footsteps and murmuring. That's when Dan's door opened and his dad had the most sympathetic look on his face.

"The guy who is showing you around school is here to pick you up. I didn't know this was going to happen. Should I send him up?" Dan's Dad explained.

"Yeah sure." Dan replied but in the inside he felt dead.

Dan jumped up, yet it was so half hearted. Dan frantically pushed all his mess to the side. Making it look less like a bomb went off. Close enough. Dan ran and jumped back into bed.

That's when a person walked through the door. The boys hair was blue and in a quiff. He had massive geek glasses that framed his face fairly well.

"I'm Tyler Oakley!" He sounded super enthusiastic which made Dan almost cower back. "And you're still in bed!" He mocked horror.

"You're American" Dan said bluntly. The boy stopped.

"No shit Sherlock. Which is a great show. Now let's get you ready!" His voice was a higher pitch than Dan's own but he was cheery enough and of course it started rubbing off on Dan because oh my god, he had a smile on his face.

Dan's dad still stood in the doorway laughing at the elusive Tyler Oakley. He eventually turned around. The boy was wearing a jumper that had the letters 'TRXYE' printed across the front.

"What's with the Jumper?" Dan asked once again swinging his legs off the bed. He knew the school was non-school uniform and now he knew you were allowed to wear all manor of clothing.

"Oh my boy friend is a solo artist called Troye Sivan, he's an amazing singer." Tyler blabbed on.

"Wait Troye Sivan?" Dan exclaimed suddenly realising why the name sounded familiar.

"Yes. I'm surprised you didn't go for the usual 'wait your gay?' bull crap like noooo I'm straight but have a boyfriend-"

"Tyler!" Dan laughed. "Your boyfriend is Troye Sivan" He breathed.

"Yes the dream boy who wrote 'Happy Little Pill' yes." Tyler threw a piece of clothing at Dan. To be honest Dan hadn't even noticed that he'd been rummaging through his wardrobe but a pair of skinny jeans narrowly missed Dan's head. "Wear those you'll look fit." Tyler complimented. He'd picked out a white shirt that had black moths printed on it. Nice. "Your Bi right?" Tyler clarified.

"Yeah how'd you guess?" Dan asked confused.

"I have an eyes for this type of stuff Daniel." Tyler bragged walking out the room. "Now get changed or we'll be late" Tyler shouted over his shoulder.

"Call me Dan please!" Dan shouted back ignoring Tyler's command.

Dan quickly pulled on his clothes, freshening up on the way. He was done for the time he would've like to be finished anyway.

"Ready?" Tyler asked looking up from his phone which he'd been frantically texting on.

"No Tyler I randomly got changed just to stay at home." Dan said sarcastically.

"You don't get changed when you're at home?" He asked cocking his head to the side.

"Well yes..." Dan trailed off. Tyler raised and eyebrow.

"Nice try at the sarcasm. You'll learn." He informed. Dan nodded, slightly embarrassed.

"Let me grab something to eat." Dan called when Tyler started trailing towards the front door. Dan grabbed a breakfast bar and ran out of the door to catch up to Tyler. Who, despite Dan's indirect way of saying wait, had walked off with out him anyway.

They'd been casually chatting and clicked together like a bone snapping back in to place. All the way from Johnlock and Sherlock to lesbians and hardcore porn. Turns out they were both just those kind of people. It was a few moments comfortable silence before Tyler asked the question that Dan knew would be asked but he had desperately hoped he could avoid.

"So Dan, why'd you move here?" He asked casually as if he wasn't trying to get drama out of him despite the fact he probably was.

Hm. Maybe because his mum was a homophobic alcoholic who spent all their Money on drugs. Maybe it was the fact his brother ran away to his non homophobic grandparents so he could survive.

So go on Dan, why did you move?

"My dad got a job here that payed better." partially true.

"Any mum in the picture?" Tyler asked obviously trying to see if he could expand on what he mentioned. Lies wanted to tumble out of his mouth like a rock fall so he let it do so.

"Divorce. Young age." Dan spoke bluntly. It took Tyler a few moments to think of another conversation, realising he struck a sour chord.

"Oh erm who do you have for Science?" Dan asked after there conversation had drifted off again.

"Science? Ha. Ms. Featrini." Same as Dan. "She a bitch with a vengeance. Apparantly I broke up her marriage because I could tell her husband was gay. Like bitch get a make over and find a mother husband." Dan found himself laughing at Tyler's story and smiled a little, remembering good times.

Apparently Dan and Tyler had every class together for the sake of showing him around the school. Tyler was in the highest classes and the second highest classes meaning Dan was in his comfort zone.

"Here we are." Tyler sighed, gesturing towards the dull grey building in front of them.

Dan wished he could feel emotions right now so he could show you but he couldn't even feel the anxiety that usually hits him when he walks into school.

However, there was nothing.

[A/N] okay I love both Dan and Phil in this book I'm creating and I can't wait for you guys to see their tail and their story throughout this fanfic.

THANK YOU TO THE AMAZING ThatIsPhantastic (aka bae) who helped me edit this chapter and made it add up.

There are going to be a few more characters. Some youtubers that we know, like Tyler, others that we don't because I think it's interesting to see the characters you create in your mind.

Twitter: @phanlifewattpad

Enjoy,,,