Unforgotten

Chapter 4

"Riley! Wait!"

The words slipped out before I could stop them.

Oh god what am I doing? I don't need to know this, ugh.

He walked back up to me.

"What is it? Is something wrong?"

Too late to turn back now.

"Um no, I just- I wanna know something. About us."

A look of confusion crosses his face.

"Us? What about us?" He scrunches his eyebrows together but I could hear a hint of hope in his voice.

I exhaled.

"Was there-..is there an 'us'?"

His eyes dropped to the ground and he looked extremely sad.

Kill. Me. Now. I shouldn't  have brought it up.

I walked over and held his hand. He looked up at me with his big, blue eyes.

God I loved those eyes. Every time I looked into his eyes it's like I was carried away to a place where no harm would ever come. His eyes made me feel safe..

"Yes." He said after what felt like years.

"We had been dating for 2 years and I uh I had taken you to Colorado Springs for our anniversary. Avery you meant..and still mean everything to me.." he paused.

"Riley.." I started.

"I couldn't save you!" He exclaimed. "You were the most important thing to me and I couldn't save you. It was all my fault. I wish every day to just go back and do it differently. Even if saving you meant me getting hurt or killed. None of this would've happened if it wasn't for me. This is all my fault and I am so sorry. I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you."

Tears were running down his checks as he spoke.

"Riley, it's not your fault. Saving me isn't worth losing your life over - I'm okay. I am alive and here right now because of you. Don't beat yourself up over this please? I need you to be strong for me. This isn't your fault, okay I promise. I'm not and will never blame you for this"

His eyes met mine and before I knew it so did his lips.

The moment his lips met mine, the rest of the world faded away like those cliché movies. But nothing else mattered in that moment it was just me and him against everything. It's like my brain didn't know anything, but my heart and body did. I loved him. In the short time it all made sense. Riley was the guy I loved and would do anything for.

He pulled back and made eye contact with me.

"I'm sorry," he whispered, "I couldn't fight it anymore - I'm really sorry."

He looked hurt. I took his face in my hands.

"Don't be, I'm not upset. I'm you're girlfriend, right? Aren't you supposed to kiss you girlfriend?" I kinda smirked at my lame attempt to lighten the mood.

"I love you."

I dropped my hands.

Woah, was not prepared for that one but I mean I do love him. I'm just scared that if I say it back, tomorrow I'm gonna wake up and remember nothing and he'll remember this moment of when I did love him and be more hurt and worried that he'll never get me back. Oh, but those big blue eyes..I can't resist.