Slow Death

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Angel with a shotgun- The Cab

Sometimes I let the playlist play by itself

Because I can't chose the right song

Sometimes I let the tears flow out as silently as possible

Because I don't know what's happening

Sometimes I just stare blankly at the floor

Because I feel empty

It's all because my mind isn't working at all

I stopped asking for anything

Am not even enthusiastic for my birthday

Sometimes family gatherings make me feel more depressed

Sometimes I think of how life would be without me

Sometimes I look at those persons who are so motivated in life

And I'm just a person, with barely no plans in life ahead

Today I starved myself

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I just feel that I should have been there

So that I could hug you, look at you, care for you, always clinging to you,

So that I could stop the blades from cutting yoir hands and cut mine so that I would understand better

So that I could wipe off those streaming tears, replace it with endless laughter and hearty smiles

So that I could make you feel important, make you feel cared, make you feel beautiful

But I can't...
You've been broken so many times and I still feel guilty for not mending this unbearable pain...

Thank you so much Taylor. But I promise you I'll find you when i will come to Australia one day for sure.
I'll take you away to discover the happy side of the world.
I promise.