Cowboys and Angels

Ex

Everything has been awkward between Chris and I and it's been just over a week. We have had a few conversations since then but he seems to be avoiding me. I figured it would be like this so I shouldn't be so shocked and hurt by it but I am and it sucks.

Deciding that it was time for us to move on from last week and get back to how we were. I try to enjoy having him here as a friend. The awkwardness around him is better than him not being here at all and me being here all alone.

I picked up my phone and dialed his number then waited for him to answer.

"Hello?" He answered clearly yawning.

"We need to go grocery shopping and also get things for the house."

"Okay, you can go?"

"No, I want you to go too. Get ready, you have 10 minutes to get ready and meet me in my truck."

He let out a quiet sigh, "which one?"

"I wanna take my play truck."

"Fine," he huffs before hanging up.

I put my phone down and get myself ready before grabbing my purse, shoving my phone in my back pocket, finding my keys then going to wait in the truck. I kept myself simple today. Hair mostly up, plain black t-shirt, skinny jeans and my black and pink cowboy boots.

While waiting in the car I turned on the music and closed my eyes. It wasn't even a minute into the song before Chris scares me and climbs in. I can't help but to laugh because I wasn't even paying attention. He doesn't ask why I laughed or even look over at me so I just shut up and start the truck.

Once again, the 40 minute drive into town was awkwardly quiet but as soon as we arrived at Meijer, I jumped out and headed towards the doors. I can't stand awkward silences and that was extremely awkward.

Inside the store there was a quiet chatter throughout keeping it less awkward between us. We were going up and down the aisles picking out food and drinks to get for back at the ranch. The only things that were said between us was us asking if we wanted that item of food or not.

"Kayla?" A voice from behind us interrupts.

We both turn around and when I see who is standing there, I put on the most fake smile I can conjure up, "Sam, hi..."

Chris looks down at me trying to figure out what's going on but I ignore him.

"Wow- it's great to see you- how long has it even-"

"Four years," I say cutting him off before he can finish his question.

"Oh, you're keeping track?"

"No, just been that long since I've been here."

"Oh-"

"Well it was nice seeing you, gotta go," I say in a rush to try and scurry away.

I don't even make it six feet before I'm stopped again but this time I wasn't the one who was stopped, it was Chris by Sam.

"Do I know you from somewhere?" Sam asked him.

Chris turned back to Sam, "yeah, you used to live across the hall in my old girlfriends apartment." He said before turning around and walking with me.

As soon as we are a couple of aisles away, Chris breaks the awkward silence, "what the hell was that?"

I cringe on the inside because I was hoping he wouldn't ask anything. "That- that was my ex of six years..."

I look back at him to see he is wearing his poker face, great. I knew I should have made up some kind of excuse.

"I take it y'all broke up and it was bad?"

"Well, yes but no... I'd rather we talked about it in the truck so I know he isn't snooping."

"Okay, are you ready to leave then?"

"Yeah."

~♡~

"So, you think he is still in love with you?" Chris asks as soon as I finish my story with my ex.

"Yeah," I answer him. "He is constantly messaging me on Facebook, Twitter, or my phone and even calling me sometimes. The guy can't take a hint."

"Is it becoming a problem?"

"No but since I'm back in town and he thinks we only broke up because of distance, he is going to try and get back together with me and I don't want that."

"Can't you block him on your social media's and phone?"

"I've tried but he always finds a way to undo all of it. It pisses me off. He's changed his number like three times just so he can text or call me."

He doesn't say anything for a minute. I think he is starting to process how crazy Sam is. I'm glad I didn't tell him about the other things Sam would do to me, he would be really upset and I don't want that...

"So, if distance wasn't the only thing that made you break up with him, what were the other reasons again?"

"I just- I liked someone else where I lived and Sam and I really just needed to stop trying. The whole distance thing was so stupid after about a month. It was like dating a ghost and it really just annoyed me more then anything."

"Then why did you do it for three more years?"

His question hit close to home in a strange way and I couldn't help but feel upset at it.

"I just didn't want to feel alone..."

We were parked in front of the house again and I guess Chris thought I was a good time to be comforting towards me. He cupped my chin with his hand and turned my face towards him. I could see his eyes so perfectly and I could finally see what he was feeling. Sympathy and hurt, at least that's what his eyes were screaming.

"I know how it feels to be alone... I hated it so much, I still do- just know that you aren't alone, okay?" He says giving me a full smile.

I nod my head and smile at how thoughtful he is being. Nobody has ever been so kind to me like he has and nobody has ever made me have as much fun as he has and that really scares me.

With that talk out of the way, we grab what we can for the first trip and make our way inside, dropping the bags on the island in the kitchen then doing the same thing again. I made sure to buy enough groceries to fill the pantry, fridge, and refrigerator so we had about 6 or 7 trips each.

I had a lot of time to think as we were putting everything away. I could think of anything I wanted to but my mind keeps going back to one thing... Chris. No matter how hard I try to get him out of my head, I can't and it's driving me insane. He's so sweet and has never really hurt me. He rejected me at the bar the other week but that's nothing compared to what I've been through in the past with guys.

Sometime between when I arrived at the ranch a few weeks ago and now, Chris snuck his way into my head and hasn't left since. I know it's only one sided and I'm setting myself up for more hurt but I can't help it. I care about Chris a lot and that scares me.