Cowboys and Angels

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"Chris, I need to be honest with you," I say as we sit down in the upstairs den.

He looks at me like he is expecting the worse, "is something wrong?"

"Kinda... I just need the truth to be out there." I look at him just to see him looking back at me waiting. I sigh, "Chris- I can't stop think about that kiss-"

"Look- I didn't want you to do anything you would regret that's why-"

"I don't regret it..."

He stares at me for a solid thirty seconds with a shocked look on his face. He looks like he is fighting with himself on what to say next. It's like he wants to believe what I said but doesn't at the same time.

"You don't?"

"No, I was only slightly buzzed. I knew exactly what I was doing. I know you pulled away because you don't feel the same way I do- hell, I'm not entirely sure how I feel. I know that I feel something for you- I care about you a lot and it scares me; but I understand why you did what you did. I just want things to stop being so awkward between us. It's been two weeks now and I've been miserable..."

He stares at me for a moment and I can feel my heart racing in my chest. He's just sitting on the bean bag next to mine, he's so close to me and it's driving me crazy. I just wanna pull him in for a kiss again but that would make things even more awkward than they already are and him not responding makes me even more uneasy.

I can feel tears about to emerge at his lack of response so I get up and start to walk away. I head towards the stairs but I don't even get half way there before Chris grabs my arm and spins me around. I slam into his chest and look up at him. A single tear falls and he wipes it away with his thumb as he cups my face.

"I'm scared too," he says before pressing his lips to mine.

I'm shocked at first that he is kissing me but that fades away as I close my eyes and feel myself melt into the kiss. My arms wrap around his neck and he moves his hands to my waist. His fingers grip tightly to my sides and the kiss deepens.

My lips move softly against his as I pull him closer to me. He starts backing me up until I feel the couch behind me and he gently lays my body down. He hovers above me and his body is pressed on top of mine. I feel my body react in all the right ways and it feels amazing. His lips move from my lips to my neck and he starts leaving a trail of kisses leading down to my chest.

"Chris," I moan unable to keep quiet.

I feel one of his hands grip my side and squeeze again. The firm grip he has on my side has my body screaming and the intensity of everything has my body ready for more.

Chris stops and looks up at me as he tries to catch his breath, "shit- I-I'm so sorry-"

"Chris, stop," I say smiling up at him.

I pull him down for another kiss but this time I just gave him a lingering kiss that was quick and kept him wanting more before I pulled away. We were both looking at each other after we pulled away and I smiled.

"Chris... I-I care about you way more than I should for only knowing you for a month..."

He sat up on the couch and I did too, he pulled my legs over top of his and held me close to him. When we were comfortable, he spoke, "Kayla- my last relationship really hurt me badly... I never told you but I left that relationship because she kept cheating on me and was only using me as a form of comfort. That was only a year and I can't go through that again. Kayla, I like you- a lot actually and I'm scared because I don't wanna go through a pain like that again..."