Love and war

A letter to Huckleberry

we sat in my room with so much distance, we both not saying anything, My cheek was getting hot and my heart beating fast. I wasn't in love that is completely The only thing I knew he was in love with my best friend so this was completely confusing. " Maya what happened between us has stay secret until I can figure out how to tell Riley, and I want to be with her she's my star, I know that we regret it deeply because we both love Riley do you really want to hurt her?" He tried to reason with me, he should've called me over the phone and told me, that would've been easier for me not to cry, I couldn't help the tears to fell down my cheek and he quickly rolled the computer chair over to me. " I think it's time you go, and I promise I won't tell Riley you're right I love her but I think you need to go!" I said as push away him, I hated Lucas, I hated riley hate myself I could never hate Riley because riley she didn't deserve she loves us more than anything in the world, she would've stepped aside even though she loved him more than I would ever but love him but I did I loved him, what kind of best friend was I, to sleep with her boyfriend while she was visiting her sick grandmother in Philadelphia that was Riley for you she always doing everything for everyone else but herself. I got drunk and made the biggest mistake of my life I woke up in love with my best friend's boyfriend how does that happen why try to tell me one of the reasons it was wrong I kept picture myself in bed with him and he holding you tightly. And when he was only gone and I was alone with my thoughts I sent down with the piece of paper and pen and wrote him a letter.

Dear huckleberry
You're such a huckleberry, you're so sweet and so nice it drive me insane,knowing that you and Riley belong together yeah fire is great, but the thing about fire is rain summer rain, it kills the flames. I hated You for making me fall in love with you, content with our games and me making fun of you but you spoke to me with your eyes, tell me everything is going to be OK. I hate you for being such a huckleberry I hate you for being a hopalong who hop from girl to girl and breaks my best friend heart, I hate that I'm one of those girls who, lie Riley's face about having you in their bed, I hate that you come along Guy that comes along with so much baggage but I love your baggage that I love your baggage. And I don't know why write this letter, I'm was going just rambling on about all things I hate about you but knowing deep down that I'm in love with you and you'll never feel the same way kills me softly. I felt this ways Josh a couple time for in the past, I am always going for fell for guys who unavailable, how I find myself found in love with my best friend's boyfriend is crazy, I know I'm a terrible friend she went to the end of the earth for me, but now I'm going to be the cause of her tears because you couldn't keep it in your pants, and I fell for you like a dummy I feel for you like a fool. Huckleberry Huckleberry I wish things were different and you were mine, or at least I can sleep at night without wondering where you are or if you lay next to rally which you probably are probably she fool herself into believing that you never hurt her, probably making love to you right now she's probably telling you all about her dreams, while you just crushed dream cause I wanted was for you to love me and all you I never did make a fool out of me.

I finished the letters a tear fell from my eyes and onto the paper, and lay my head against the desk, fell asleep afraid to move from the spot because it still smelled just like him.
Next morning
I watched as they made out, trying wait out, Until Riley left to go to class before walking up to him. " here" I said as Hand him my letter, " don't riley see this" I said to him as I hand the envelope, we stare into each others eyes for a second, he bit his lip before almost reaching out to Kiss me, but we both snapped out of my thoughts is Zay clear your throat. " you guy really dumb enough to do in front the whole school" we both move away, Zay rolled eye. " only reason I keep my mouth shut because you said you wouldn't do it again but if this keeps happening I'm telling Riley, like you guys she's my friend and I would never hurt her" he said as Riley walked up I close my eyes. " tell me what? is there some kind a bad joke that I'm not in on zay, you keeping your mouth shut about what? " she asked I don't know what to say but she quickly grab the envelope out of hand she didn't open it, she just walked away. " I give you until the end of the day to tell me what's going on, if you still didn't tell me, I just read your letter we all friend here last time, I check, when I left for two weeks for winter break, " she said as she walk into her father and three of us look at each other