Songs in The Key of Life

This Head I Hold

( See, I'm upset because I've always been stuck
But I don't know what it is I'm without
Guess I'm in love with always feeling down See the problem was me)

I pulled into the parking lot at about 7:50. Why am I here.. I had no idea why I agreed to go out with him. This was unlike me, I didn't do things like this. But here I was sitting in the restaurant parking lot sweating like a pig.

"OK ... ok I got this ... just go in there eat thank him and leave .... he doesn't know you slept with his brother.... and after tonight you never have to see him again." I give myself the pep talk of a lifetime, but still don't move to get out the car. What the hell was I doing here. "I can't do this" I start my car to leave when my phone rings.
"Hello...
"Are you going to get out of the car". A voice on the other end says with a french accent.
"Yea just checking my makeup." I say nervously laughing. "Coming right out"

The voice on the other end was french but didn't quit sound like Larry. I think as I head from my car to the doors of the restaurant. And just as I open the door and look up there he is.

Laurent Nicolas Bourgeois.....
Oh Fuck Me.. the voice in my head screams and I'm sure my faced showed it
A shy slow smile spreads across his face when he sees me.

"You look beautiful."
"What are u doing here." I reply confused
"Ha umm funny thing.." he starts "I kinda had my brother call u for me."
"You what.... why?"
"Because I wanted to see you again and I knew you'd never come if you knew it was me."
"OK ..this is weird. ... I'm gonna go" I turn to leave and he grabs my arm.
"Please just have dinner with me....please"
I want to leave. ... I want to turn on my heels and run away as fast as I can, but I don't.

"Fine" is all I can muster. A slow grin spreads across his face.
"OK good our table is right over here.... I've already ordered the wine if that's ok."
"Yes it fine." I reply and secretly hope there's alot of it. This is going to be along night.
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Opening the door to my apartment I must admit dinner wasn't that bad. I mean it was kinda awkward at first seeing as how I couldn't really remember much of our first interaction ... other then the sex... but tonight wasn't as bad as I had imagined.

"Your a really good dancer." He told me as he ate his chicken ravioli.
"Am I now...." I smirked " and how do you figure that"
"From the time we dance." He responded " you know the night in the club"
"Oh yea...." I stumble. " You must forgive me alot of that night is still fuggie"
"I hope not all of it." He says with a sly smile.
"Definitely not all of it." I smile back

Our conversation over dinner varied from our childhoods to his dancing career to my career in broadcasting.

"So what is Beyonce really?"
"Oh Monster is great.... she a really beautiful women and artists."

Yes the night was...... lovely.... really. I mean now that I think about it. It really was a great night. He was a real gentlemen. He asked me out again his self this time. I chuckle to myself. I'm changing into my pj's when my phone gets a text

L.N.Bourgeois - I had a great time tonight

Me- I did as well ... thanks for the wonderful night

L.N.Bourgeois - can't wait to see you again

Me- until we meet again

L.N.Bourgeois- how about coffee tomorrow

Me - kinda eager aren't we

L.N.Bourgeois - me eager never

L.N.Bourgeois - but really have coffee with me

I didn't know if I wanted to see him again so soon. I mean he was an awesome guy, but I didn't really attract awesome guys. They seemed awesome at first, and then.... ASS HOLE CITY.

Me- how about coffee Friday. ... my schedule is crazy until then.

L.N.Bourgeois - why does it feel like your blowing me off

Me - I'm not .... really Friday

Was I blowing him off? No I want to see him .... just..... not so soon. I'm coming out of my closest when my phone rings.

" I'm not blowing you off.... I swear" I say into the receiver with a giggle.

"Why would I think you were blowing me off?" Says a voice that I haven't heard all week.

"Darell "

"Yea..... why would I think you were blowing me off?" My on again off again boyfriend says into my ear.

OH FUCK ME...........

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