Lullabies (An All Time Low fanfic)

Chapter 14

Alex's P.O.V

WARNING THIS MAY BE TRIGGERING. PLEASE DON'T READ THIS IF YOU'RE EASILY TRIGGERED. IF YOU ARE GOING THROUGH ANYTHING SIMILAR TO THIS, PLEASE TALK TO SOMEONE. I LOVE YOU ALL.

Saturday morning rolled around and all I could do is lay in bed and think about the events of yesterday. I chuckled over Emma finding Bully. Her face was plans that's exactly what I was going for.

The sound of rain broke me from my thoughts and a slight smile formed on my face. I've always found my happy place when it rained. I wondered if Emma liked the rain.

Suddenly, I could hear girlish giggles floating down the hallway. I smiled, knowing I had made the right choice and buying her the dog.

"You're so cute." I could hear her pad her way down the hallways. Assuming that she was coming my way, I put a t-shirt on.

Not soon after, I heard a soft knock on my door. 

"Alex, can I come in?" Emma asked, Bully whimpered.

"Sure." And with that, her and the dog entered and plopped into the bed.

"Everything okay?" I asked. She let out a small sigh and propped herself up. 

"I don't really know. Like, I'm happy for most of the day but as soon as the lights go out and I go to bed, it feels like I'm in the middle of the ocean and I'm so far under water that I'm not sure if I should keep fighting or just give up." She looked down at her lap the whole time, playing with her hands. It honestly broke my heart. 

At first, I didn't know what to say. I'm not sure if there is anything.

"Please say something." She spoke softly, not looking up. 

"How long have you felt that way?" I asked.

"For a couple of weeks now. I didn't wanna say anything because I thought the feeling would go away. But it hasn't; it got worse." When she said that, I looked at her.

"What do you mean?" I hope she isn't saying what I think she is.

"Please don't make me tell you." She pleaded. 

"Emma, the only way I can help is if you tell me everything." 

Without another word, she lifted her sleeves. All I could do was look at her arms.

There was new cuts on top of old ones. Some looked like they needed stitches. It was heartbreaking. Like, how could I miss this? 

The sound of her sniffling brought me out of my thought. Her eyes were red and puffy.

"I'm sorry." She chocked out. I instantly pulled her into me, wrapping my arms around her.

"We're going to get you the help that you need. I just wish you would've said something to me or the guys." She just nodded her head.

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So, intense chapter, huh? If anyone self harms, I urge you to get help. It's not a healthy way of coping. Talk to someone whether it's your boyfriend/girlfriend, best friend, mom, dad, cousin, ect. No one should live in pain. And always remember, you're strong, smart, and worth everything in this world. Stay strong. <3 Until next time, you lovely people.

-Kota xoxo