Badly Broken {A Nick Matthews Story}

Am I Safe Now?

{Juliet}

Josh wrapped his arms around me and pulled me closer to him.
He then nestled his face in the crook of my neck.

"You're a cuddly" he said.
I giggled a little.

"Josh,Am I safe now?"

"Of course! You have Ange,Octavia,Me, and the rest of the guys..Including your mom and she really does love you."

I nodded my head then we both fell asleep.

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I woke up about 5 minutes later and Josh was still in the same position as he was when we both fell asleep.
I tried to get out of his grip but I couldn't so I pushed away.
I didn't want to wake him up but when I pushed away he woke up.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to wake you"

"It's fine"

I checked the time and my jaw dropped.
It was 10:50 pm.

I felt dirty ever since that "Incident" happened in the alley, so I decided to take a shower.
I grabbed some pj's and went straight to the bathroom and locked the door.

I got the shower ready then I looked at the drawer that kept my razor in it.

Should I?...should I not?........I Should..

I opened the drawer and grabbed my razor.
I didn't want them to burn when I got in the shower so I waited until I was done.

I got out of the shower and dried my hair and my body.
I changed in some pajama shorts and a H.I.M tank top.

I blow dried my hair and brushed my teeth and everything else...then I grabbed my razor.

I looked at my recent cuts then I just cut on top of them.
It hurt just a little bit but I really didn't feel that much pain either.
I couldn't stop and I went too far this time.
I stopped at the inside part of my elbow and I realized what I've just done....I Fucked up...again...

Blood covered my arm so I just washed it off.
I walked out of the bathroom and quickly grabbed my black sweater and slid it on.

"You okay? It was quiet in there for a minute" Josh said.

He startled me a little so I jumped back.

"I thought you went back to sleep?"

"I decided to stay up"

"Oh,are you hungry?" I asked.

"Starving"

I giggled at his comment and we both went downstairs to the kitchen.
Everyone were in the living room watching a movie.

"Yay! Oreos" I said while grabbing a box of them.
I looked over and saw some blue berry muffins.

"Julie!" Octavia said while giving me a tight hug.

"Heyyo" I said with a cheesy smile.

"We told your mom what happened so she suggested that you HAVE to go on tour with the guys because she feels that you're not safe here." She said.