Badly Broken {A Nick Matthews Story}

Are You Okay?

{Juliet}

"See, you don't always need to rely on your medicine to help you" he said calmly.

"I Fucked up..." I said again.

I really did fuck up this time.
I should've never cut in the first place, it's all my fault that the guys know and why I keep on having these anxiety attacks.

"Like I said, everyone isn't perfect."

"Can I be alone just for a moment,please?" I asked.

"Sure, I'll be in the front room if you need anything." Chris said while crawling out of the bunk.

I turned on my stomach and buried my face in my pillow.

Why am I such a Fuck up?!
Just why??

I cried for about 20 minutes in my pillow then I decided to listen to some music.
I dug through my duffle bag and searched for my earbuds.
I finally found them and got happy for a second.

I sat back in my bunk and blasted DeathStars through my earbuds.
My favorite song started playing.

Death Dies Hard

"Who's playing DeathStars?" I heard a voice say. I took one earbud out and opened my curtains to the side and saw Ricky. I wiped my eyes.

"Do you need a tissue?" He asked me.
I nodded my head yes a little then he left and came back in the snap of a finger.
He handed me a box of tissues and I grabbed a couple and wiped my eyes.

"Do you need eye drops?"

I shook my head no.

"Thanks for asking though"

"No problem, the guys and I are here for you if you need anything, okay?"

I nodded my head yes.

"Death Dies Hard?" He said while cocking his head to the side.
I nodded my head yes.

"That's my ringtone on my phone" he said with a smile.

He pulled out his phone and played the ringtone.
He bobbed his head a little and I giggled a little.

"You're really nice, besides Josh and Chris" I said.

"We all are. We love helping other people out, that's just our thing." He said while putting his phone away.

I smiled faintly a little.

"Wanna listen?" I asked.

"Sure" he said while grabbing the other earbud.
The next song that played was Modern Death.
We both bobbed our heads a little then we looked at each other and laughed.

"Are you guys usually this quiet?" I asked.

"No, why?"

"Because it sounds like no one is on the bus"

"We just thought that you needed some peace and quiet"

"Oh..why do you guys make it seem like I'm the star on the bus? I don't need attention like the other attention whores out there."

"We're giving you attention because you need it."

"But I don't want attention, I wanna be by myself...alone."