3 a.m Nightmares

our letter to an angel.

You're breaking up over him,

D o n ' t.

I'm here to tell you, you'll be fine. You don't need him,

but I'm also selfish and greedy. I'd benefit from your loss.

I'd be more than happy to watch him leave you and run to me,

if that's what he wanted to do,

but I wouldn't want you to suffer over it. I'm not completely heartless.

You deserve to smile, to be happy, to have time outside of your own mind.

We both suffer so much over him because we're both very much the same person,

Our twisted ways and interests fell for the same parts of him.

I think we may even love him at the same level, with the same intensity

but where we're different is also where I benefit.

You're fragile, soft, weak hearted.

I'm tough, hard, strong hearted.

If he breaks me, I break him back,

and we enjoy the time spent putting each other back together.

Make a date of it.

In turn, if he breaks you,

you stay a crumbled mess.

He'd have to build you back up with sweet words and actions.

Words and actions you know he doesn't mean but for you,

living in the illusion is better than the a b y s s.

But I'm here to save you, to tell you he doesn't enjoy that game.

You're too innocent, too pure, too kind.

He's cruel, tricky, and capricious.

All traits matched with my o w n.

Your the kind of person who would try and put out a fire,

we're the kind that would find it beautiful.

Dance and kiss around it.

Him and I.

This is a game too rough for a flower like you,

so don't suffer over people like him and me.

Find others like you.

Find someone who would bring the sun to you if you begin to wither,

not try to over water you with lies.

You deserve the truth,

you deserve happiness.

I deserve h i m.

That's just the way things are.

Also, I hate to have to throw this in

but in the case of further proving my point, I will.

He was mine first.

I just made the mistake of being too hard,

too closed,

too distant.

He couldn't keep up with it.

He was more fragile than I thought.

That's why you appealed to him at that time.

I just got a little lazy, but now

I'm taking my masochist back.

I see him drowning over there and even though I can't swim,

I'll take him back from you.

I would rather you let him swim out to me instead,

It would prove I'm not such a monster

L e t h i m g o

I'll take good care of him.

I always did,

and you know that.