Sweet Nightmares

When did the light burn?

          I remember when I was a small child, 5-8 I believe, I would run around all day in the sunlight and never worry about sunburns or stuff like that. I loved the outdoors, playing in the dirt, climbing a hill, riding my bike or one of my neighbor's horses. It was great big house and lots of space, plus everyone was nice and kind, never really got into fights but then I moved.

The people were rude and cruel, fights were practicality around every corner. Soon I got picked on for being nice or sh!t like that. 4th grade was hell, someone made fun of me everywhere I went. That's when I became distant from social interactions like group work or recess. Staying in the shadows alone with my books or the voices in my head. Though people still came and missed with me. At one point I did make a friend but then people started saying bull about me to him and then he started messing with me as well.

5th grade came around and people left me alone sometimes but they had a new toy to play with but I didn't care, I stopped caring. They would come and mess with me while I was in my only friend the darkness and while they would begin to cry or yell shut up and run away. I just started reading them I guess, most of them had family problems, acceptance issues, and/or lost someone very close to them. It was all written on their faces I just had to look. Soon the 5th grade ended and I moved to a different location in the same place. The kids were still rude as hell but some had kinda the same sh!t happen to them and we became friends. I am still distant but at least someone hangs in the dark with me.  

  Pets close to my heart began to die on me and I got more heartless. I guess and I never really trusted anyone but the very few friends who didn't ask me questions and don't barge in my life when I ask them not to.

Now when I step outside in the sunlight it hurts, it brings back the past that I want to forget or at least not visit. The dark has become my home, I now cry at the pain of the past, the pain of the sun. Darkness is my only friend.

"Hey is something wrong?" I blinked my eyes open only to feel warm liquid on my cheeks and a hand on my shoulder. "yeah I'm fine just memories."