Revenge is Sweeter Than Friendship

Chapter 3 Testing The waters.

The next few days of school went the same way for me, the rude insults, the snide comments, and being worked like a slave driver the moment I walked through the door. It was now Thursday and I sat with Alexandria on a bench in the middle of the park that lay three streets down from my house. There wasn't much conversation going on. We had actually been sitting in silence for the past ten minutes, it wasn't to horrible, just uncomfortable. But no matter how uncomfortable it was, I was so not about to break that silence. 

My eyes drifted towards two squirrels sitting under some oak trees. They watched all the people, the children running and laughing, the adults who sat still and chatted about their boring lives. Everything was as it should be. Except the one squirrel, with the really bushy tail and the chubby stomach, he kept looking towards three little boys with a look of pure terror in his eyes. I didn't blame him though, I wouldn't want all these people so close to my home.  

"So..." I looked towards Alexandria looking for the source who ended my inner thoughts. "I finally kissed Steven." Forget my inner thoughts, now my head was spinning with this new statement that had been inserted into my brain. I tried not to let surprise show on my face. 

"Really? How was it?" I said calmly, while my heart started to pick up its pace when the thought of Steven's lips being anywhere near another girl, let alone Alexandria, finally registered. 

"It was okay I guess, I kind of expected more, like the whole fireworks and stuff...I guess I have been watching way to many of those romantic comedies." 

I chuckled.  

"What's so funny??" she questioned. 

"Nothing." She gave me that I-know-you-are-lying glare. "Its just, I remembered how bad of a kisser Steven was." That was totally a lie. Steven was actually an amazing kisser. And if she wasn't satisfied there had to be something really wrong with her.  

"I totally agree with that statement!" she declared in an all to happy voice. 

"Well I'm sorry your first kiss totally sucked, babe. I should have warned you." I did my best pitiful look, and she bought it. 

"That's okay, love. I just wish that I would get the chance to kiss someone else, who knew what they were doing. But have a feeling that wont be happening for a while." 

"Why not?" I questioned all too quickly. I have to remind myself to stop doing that. She didn't seem to notice though. 

"Its just that me and Steven like each other, a lot. And I think we are going to be together for a while and I could never cheat on him. Being with another guy doesn't even appeal to me anymore." 

" well.....I'm sorry." Was all I could say. My stomach was in knots just thinking about them being together for even longer. I mean how could she do this to me. That backstabbing witch, but then you have to remember, you gave her permission to. My inner voice always used logic and I hated it. 

"Don't be sorry." Was all she said. She was looking at her hands and fiddling with her thumbs, like she always did when she wanted to say something else. I waited. She opened her mouth to speak, but then she quickly closed it once again. 

"We should get going, its getting late and I have to make dinner." I said standing up from the bench and started walking towards my house. She quickly followed. 

There was silence the entire walk home. My mom actually let me have Alexandria stay the night, even though at this point I didn't really want her to. But then again I already asked so it would be pretty darn rude of me to just withdraw my offer.  

After dinner we walked downstairs to my bedroom, still not saying much except our usual banter about school and friends. Alexandria is not the kind to even pretend like she wants to talk to your family. She gets that awkward why-are-you-speaking-to-me face every time someone other than me tries to strike up a conversation with her. 

We both flopped down on my bed, her sitting, me sprawled out all over. We sat there in silence for a while. This time it was pleasant. Well until she broke it. 

"Can I ask you something, Zan?" 

"Ya kinda already did, but shoot." I said not to enthusiastically. 

"Do you ever....umm... no never mind. Its stupid." I rolled over. 

"Nope you already said it, so now you are not going to get any sleep tonight until you tell me what it is that is making you so tongue tied over there." She put her eyes down and fiddled her thumbs again. 

"Do you ever, you know, find yourself attracted to girls?" Okay that so was not the question I was expecting. I was expecting something along the lines of "Do you still like Steven?" something simple I knew the answer to, a big fat NO. I thought about her question a little before answering. 

"I would have to say yes. But if you asked me if I would ever date one, that would be a no. I find girls beautiful and stuff but not really my type to date." I answered truthfully. 

"Well would you ever kiss one?" she asked, still looking away. 

"Yes definitely." Was my only reply. 

We sat there for a while longer. The room grew dark as the sun faded in the sky. I didn't like to turn on lights in my bedroom. I much preferred candlelight. Other lights hurt my eyes. 

"Well, I'm tired." I stated, before getting up and going through my dresser for clothes to sleep in. 

"Me too." Said Alexandria, while digging through her bag. I pulled out a pair of short shorts and a tank top, my normal nighttime attire. I saw that Alexandria did the same. We both started undressing at the same time. I have always been jealous of Alexandria's figure. I looked down at my own body and saw small stretch marks that lined my thighs and got a little self conscious. I quickly pulled my shorts on, hiding the marks. 

Alexandria had her shorts on as well and was trying to put her top the right way since it was inside out. I looked at her flat tummy and then up to her small chest. That's where I got my pride. My boobs were huge compare to hers and I regained a little of my confidence.  

We both finished washing our faces and got in bed. Before long I could hear her soft snore and knew that thanks to conversations of today, I would not be able to get a wink of sleep tonight.