Hang In There.

Part 4

  It's a Saturday morning. Hal is a great tea maker. She made me a cup of a tea. I try to drink something else than tea but I just can't. I hate coffee. I'm that kind of person you won't find hanging out at the Starbucks drinking coffee.

No offence coffee lover. "Morning, girls. So, what's the plan today?" said Mrs. Dougherty. "I was thinking that if we can catch some movies or.." "Bowling?" I don't know why, but Hal loves to cut through if someone is talking. Poor little Mia.

"Yeah, sure. Bowling..fun.." Mia gives her deadly look to Hal. I got the weirdest friends in the world. I was plucking some strings in the living room. For me, music is something else. Music is life.

I think if I don't listen to music I won't function for the whole day, that's how important music to me. I put down the guitar and check on my phone. I got a text. Who would text someone this early? Oh right, Mum would. I check the text message and surprisingly it's not from Mum but instead it's from Ken. I guess last night's chat was not enough. What am I saying? I'm being ridiculous again.

"Morning, Morgan."

"Morning :)"

I think maybe by putting a smiley face he'll think I'm okay. I don't really like when someone cares that much about me. Because I'm already used to being alone and unloved. I don't know why would someone loves me. I mean just look at me. I'm ugly, pathetic, miserable and I'm just horrible. He replied to me real quick like really quick. Like a flash or some stuff.

"Are you up to something today? If not, how about we go hang out or catch some movies? :D"

Is he asking me out?

"Actually, the girls are planning to go play bowling. Tbh, I don't really like bowling."

"Haha, really? So, are we going out?"

"Is it just us? I just umm... you know.."

"Yea, just us. If you want to bring girls along, I'm fine with that."

"No, no. Yeah, sure."

I walk in the kitchen. "Hey, I think I'm not coming." Yea, I know I'm sacrificing my friends for a guy. What a jerk, Morgan. Well done. "But, why? What are you hiding?" Okay, Hal is giving me her creepy smirk look.

Okay, that's creepy. I just look at her, no words is coming out from my throat. "Actually, Ken. He asked me out. Should I go?" Yes, I tell them. I'm actually confused whether to go or not. "Sounds like a date to me," says Mia. "I'm being serious right here..." I just want to make it clear. "Oh, sorry Ms. Serious. You should go..Yea, maybe you can know him better that way." said Mia.

Yea, it's kinda true. I would love to know him better. "You just met him and you're going out already?" Hal says looking at me. She raised an eyebrow at me. "It's not like a date, Hal. It's like umm a normal hangout." I'm not looking toward love in this 'condition'. 

 I finally decided to go. I'm wearing some rock band tee with my black jeans and, of course, my black Vans. I don't think I actually have colours in my closet. I enter the mall that Ken told me about. I can see him sitting on a bench waiting for me.

"Morgan!" His voice. He sounds so excited to see me. Like he just found the light at the tunnel end. "Hey." I can't think of anything else when I see him. He walks towards me. My heart skips a beat. It hurts but I love the paim. What is this feeling? I experienced this before but I can't remember.. It hurts a lot. Butterflies, butterflies start appearing in my stomach. I'm a bit dizzy. Did I just fell in love? 

  "Morgan, are you okay?" He asked. Okay? I want to scream out but my breath was caught in my throat. "Yea, I think. I'm delighted to see you." I said. I need to say something, right? "Me too, you want to watch a movie?" Why is his voice sounds so angelic in my ears? I can listen to it all day... It's so soft. What are you doing Morgan? "Sure." I finally responded to him. His green eyes met mine for a few seconds. The cinema is at the third floor. 

  While we were walking to the cinema, "Morgan, you know what?" Ken said. "What?" "That you have beautiful eyes." he smiles at me. "No, they look like water. Your eyes are beyond beautiful.." I just realized what I said. I look at him and saw his sunshine smile. "Thank you. When I was young, I always wanted blue eyes. I like your eyes. Your eyes tell me everything without having you to say it. Stop denying they are beautiful." He continued. He's right, maybe I should be more grateful. "Thank you, Ken." I wonder why anyone would hurt an angel like him? We finally reach the cinema. Ken bought the tickets. He said it's going to be a horror movie, which I don't really mind because I actually love horror movies.

It's the new Paranormal Activity movie. I found the cinema is colder than usual. Ken and I share the popcorns. The movie was not scary really. There's like gazillion jump scares. After the movie, we went to this coffee house. Obviously, I don't get myself a cup of coffee. We sit and talk like what normal people would do. He talks to me and share a little bit of himself with me. It felt like a dream. The way he talks, why would a person like him be depressed like me? I try not to make the atmosphere become awkward with sharing my problems with him.

I know you shouldn't be sharing your problems with someone you just barely knew. But, I feel comfortable with him. He listens to me even the words that came out from my mouth that no make any senses. 

 It's getting late. I don't want to go home, no. If I go home I have to listen to my parents arguing. I hate it. I just can't wait until I officially turn 18. So, I can move out from there. Follow my dreams and live my life.

I don't know how Tom can stand living with my parents. Sometimes, Tom runs into my room, crying. But, he's not having depression problems like me. Although, Tom can be really annoying sometimes. I still love him. He will always be that little baby brother to me. I'm 4 years older than him. I was smiling like an idiot when I got a flashback from when I was young. I was feeding Tom.

"Thomas, open up. Here comes the choo choo train..." No words can explain how much I love my Thomas. I didn't even realize that I got tears in my eyes. "Are you crying?" Ken snaps me out from my little flashback. "No, something caught my eyes." I lied. "Ken, I don't want to go home," I mumbled. I don't think Ken can hear me, but he did anyway.

"I know how it feels. I don't want to go home too. Do you want to run away, with me?" "Run away? Can we? I mean where do we want to go?" I get so excited. "Anywhere you want, princess. Anywhere. I'll take you there." Ken says to me while smiling. There it is the sunshine smile. "Okay, then. I'll go anywhere as long as you beside me. Okay?" I can feel there's a chemistry between us. "Okay. Let's go now..." "What, now?" Ken pulls my arm. He does not say anything until we reach his car. Yes, I forgot to tell you that he drives.

    He opens the door for me. He start the car engine and start driving. I look out the window and the stars twinkle really bright tonight. I was so engrossed watching the stars. The moonlight is bright too.

It's an odd night. Ken is driving without saying anything. "Ken." I break the awkward silence. He let out a little hum. "Why do you care about me that much? Don't get me wrong, I just..." Before I can continue my sentence, Ken pulls over the car to the side of the road. He hold my hands and says,

"You know those cliché moments in movies where they just met and they already fell in love? I used to hate those so much but I think that I really like you so much that it might be love."

 I'm speechless. No words came out from my mouth. I gave him a hug. I hugged him so tight that I could barely breath. I don't want to let him go. "I think I like you too that it might be love." I buried my face in his shoulder. He smelled like honey. Sweet and soft. 

  Ken drove me all the way from Blackpool and now we're in Doncaster. He brings me to this one house. It's a very big house. "Whose house is this?" I asked.

"It was my grandfather's but he gave it to me.. Come on." He drag me into the house. Damn, it's really big. There's so many rooms, it's like a mansion but smaller than that. Ken is so lucky. We spend the night there...

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I didn't edit much in this since it's annoyingly adorable.

Ugh.