To save a Life

Chapter 11

Blue's POV

When we get to the hotel, the van parks next to the tour bus in an area that is behind a fence so fans can't get in. I feel fidgety and nervous. I can't help but worry about what's going to happen tonight. And I mean this hotel looks super expensive with it's bloody glass chandeliers and fanciness. I can't afford a place like this. Harry put his hand on the small of my back and lead me to the elevator with the rest of the boys. He hasn't left my side since exiting the van.

I finally realized that Louis wasn't with us. That was weird. Where did he go? "Would you like to stay in my room tonight Blue?" Harry asked me. I could hear the hesitance in his voice. "Or you can stay in mine?" Niall offered with a smile. I didn't really want to stay with either of them, but I at least know Harry. Niall is still a stranger. "Thank you Niall, but I think I'll stay with Harry." Niall nodded. And Harry looked away, but not before I could catch a hint of a smile on his beautiful lips.

Harry had comforted me back in the van. That shows that he's really trying and I have to give him credit for that. We split from the boys and I follow Harry to a pretty large room. At least there were two beds lining the wall. It was very quiet between us. No one knew what to say. So I decided to break it.

"Thank you for paying my hospital bill Harry." I said as I sat down on the bed I was claiming as mine. He tilted his head slightly at me and again his eyebrows were pulled together. "You're not going to yell at me for doing that?" He gave me a small crooked smile and I did the last thing in the world I expected I would do. I laughed. The laugh scared me, it was unfamiliar because I've been living on fake laughs for so long. Harry's smile grew larger. "Woah. I haven't done that in a long time." I accidentally said out loud. Harry came and sat directly beside me. "And why is that?" I shrugged my shoulders. He sighed quietly but didn't push me for answers like Kate did, which I appreciate.

"A lot has happened since I woke up from my comma and you were gone. I've changed and it hasn't been for the better." Harry studied my face intently. "You could never be for the worse Blue." We stared at each other and I felt an unfamiliar burn in my throat and behind my eyes. "That's because you don't know me anymore or what has happened. I broke, Harry, a long time ago, and there's nothing that can fix me anymore. I don't cry. My parents died and I didn't cry. I'm a monster that pushes people away for no reason. I'm lonely but I push people away." "Why? Tell me what happened. Make me see!"

I released a long breath. I haven't opened up to someone like that since the last time I hung out with the boy sitting beside me right now. Basically four years ago. "Look I'm tired I think I'm going to get some rest." I said even though it was just after five. Harry nodded and got off my bed. He turned on the tv but had the volume down low. The sound was soothing. Before I drifted off I asked Harry one more thing: "Harry?" "Mhmm?" "Where was Louis when we all came into the hotel?" There was a rustling sound as Harry shifted. "He sleeps in the tour bus." "Oh okay." "Um Harry?" I said tentitively. "Yes Blue?" "Goodnight." Den though I was facing away from him I could imagine that he smiled at that. "Goodnight Blue." He said in a soft voice. Then it was time to have my battle with consciousness.

Harry's POV

I stared at the tv not really watching it. I played Blue's words about herself over and over. 'Im a monster.' But she could never be a monster. She may be broken but that doesn't mean she's a monster. What in the world happened to her? After hours of making myself crazy every time Blue shifted in her bed, which she did a lot, I was tired. She never used to be a restless sleeper. I shook my head and turned off the tv. I  had taken off my shirt about an hour ago but continue to wear basketball shorts for Blue's sake. As soon as my head hit the pillow I heard a whimper. I strained my ears and say up. The noises were coming from Blue. She was breathing heavily and whimpering. What the hell was she dreaming of?

I flung the blankets off of me and knelt on the floor beside where she lay. Suddenly she jerked and then flung herself awake with a silent scream on her lips. I put my hand on her arm. She turned to me with a gasp and a small sound of terror. She jumped to the other side of her bed to get away from me. "Blue it's okay, it's pme. I'm here." I said as I climbed on the bed next to her and wrapped my arms around her, pulling her into my embrace. She immediately curled into my arms. I continued to whisper calming words into her ear and she shook in my arms. I could feel her heart racing wildly so I tightened my arms around her and rocked her slightly. Remembering something, I start singing quietly as I never loosen my embrace. Slowly she starts to relax into my arms.

"Thank you." She whispers and I loosen my grip on her but don't let go. "Any time." I whisper back. She doesn't pull away from my embrace. But she does go ridged for a second so I guess she realized I was shirtless. It's not like we would hug all the time when I was shirtless. After what seems like forever goes by I break the silence. "What was your dream about?" Blue stills in my arms and then slowly starts to untangle herself from me. Of course I ruined the moment. I cursed myself. "Um." Her quiet voice said in the dark. Wait is she actually going to tell me?

Instead she gets out of her bed and turns on a light. "I think I'm going to go sleep on the tour bus if that's okay?" Of course it's not okay! Don't leave! Instead of saying what I thought I nodded and then she was gone. I ruined it again.

Blue's POV

I rush through a quiet hotel. Not even sure of the time. I find my way outside and just stand there for a while. I breath in the night air. I look over at the tour bus and study it. I looks like there is a light on, but the windows are so tinted I can't tell for sure if it's from the inside or just a reflection of the street lamp. I walk over and gingerly knock on the door. My heart is racing from my anxiety and I'm basically freaking out.

The door opens slowly to show Louis. He study's me for a second but let's me in. "I didn't wake you did I?" He shook his head. "Just gaming." He flops down on a couch and I sit down too. "What brings you into my layer Blue?" He says with a smile. I shrugged. "Let me guess. Harry was asking too many questions?" "Yea I guess." I didn't look over at him. "I understand that. We get asked way too many questions for a living! It's okay that you don't want to share." I nodded gratefully. "Thank you for understanding." "Though, it's probably not healthy to keep everything in like that."

Our conversation continued for a while. Louis changed the subject away from me and including his playful banter. Somehow though at around 4 in the morning he said something and I ended up opening to him. I told him everything. Everything. No one else in the world knew all of it except for him. I didn't cry, like I though I would. I felt a little better with someone know but I was still broken. Louis listened to everything and he was very brotherly about everything. Finally at about 8 in the morning, I fell asleep with my head on a pillow on Louis lap as he stroked my hair.