Unwanted Love: A Jessie J and Danny O'Donoghue fanfic

Chapter 27

AUTHOR'S NOTE: I'M BACK BABES! Sorry for taking so long my summer got crazy and I'm surprised Welshie hasn't killed me yet. I love you all for all the support you've given me! This weekend is champs for the summer swim season so I'm still busy but only in the morning so I thought I'd take some time away from my summer work and write. Happy reading! (It's just a short one to get me back into it)

Jessie's POV

"Danny um thanks for everything erm...."

"No need to thank me, beautiful. I love you and would do anything for you."

What the f*ck did he just say? He loves me? Oh f*ck this is going to make what I have to tell him so much harder. I feel like such a jerk. I mean he did save my life but I can't be in a relationship when I can't trust anybody. Not after what just happened. I just can't. No matter how much I like or possibly love him. I can't. My mind is just so f*cked right now. I know this is going to hurt him so much and I wouldn't be surprised if he never talks to me again but I have to do this.

"D-danny erm I don't think I c-can be.."

"Are you breaking up with me?" Danny asks with a blank face.

"I'm so sorry Dan. But I have to do what is right for me."

With that said he gets a really pissed off look on his face and starts to go off on me.

"JESUS JESS! WHAT ABOUT ME?!?! WHAT ABOUT HOW I FEEL? HUH? DO YOU EVEN CARE ABOUT ME? DO YA? HUH? DO YA? I DON'T THINK YOU F**KING DO!!!"

"YES I DO DANNY! I JUST CAN'T OK! NOT IN THIS MENTAL STATE THAT I'M IN AFTER WHAT JUST HAPPENED! I'M SO BROKEN INSIDE. CAN'T YOU FREAKING SEE THAT?" After I say this I stop shouting  but continue to explain. "I don't even know how to function normally anymore. How? Just how am I supposed to be with someone? When I can't even get my sh*t together. I can't I'm just being honest with you and trying to save you from being hurt. Can't you see that?" With that I pleadingly look into his eyes and silently beg for forgiveness.

By the look in his eyes I don't think I'm going to get forgiveness for a while but I can hope. I really think I did it this time. I mean I have hurt him so many times. Gosh! Why can't I do anything right? I am such a f*ck up! I look up at Danny again and it looks like he's about to speak his mind. 

"You know what Jess? It's fine actually. I've been hurt enough by you. I'll learn to move on. I thought for a minute that you were the one but all you seem to do is screw me over. I don't know what I did to deserve this but I'm done. I'll learn to move on. Trust me. I don't need you to be happy."

Ok that kinda stung but I guess I deserve it. I mean I just ripped the poor guys heart out. Ugh why can't I just love and be loved? Because this is what I do. I put guards up to protect myself. Then every once and a while someone comes along and manages to rip them down. Only for me to let them in and then realize how important they are becoming to me so then I push them away. I never used to be this way. I only turned out this way after Kira  (A/N for new heartbeats Kira is an ex of Jessie's) stole my heart and then ripped it to shreds.

While I'm thinking this through I see Danny get up and start to walk out. Not even once looking back. Well I guess that is that. We are DONE. Forever. 

Not to long after Danny leaves I see my parents rush in and start spewing questions directed at me. "Jess what happened? We heard screaming. Are you ok? Is Danny ok? Did you break up? Did he hurt you? Did he cheat on you? Did he say something to anger you?"

" MOM! DAD!" They both looked at me shocked because I never raise my voice to them but I needed the questioning to stop. Then I could answer all their billions of questions.

"Danny didn't do anything. I ended it with him. I just don't think it's right for me to be in a relationship when I can't even care for myself right now."

"Oh darling. Are you sure?" My mom said.

What part of I ended it does this woman not get? Oh well she's my mom and I love her so I shall not blow up on her.

"Yes Mom. I'm sure. I thought this through." I say.

"Ok Jess. Whatever makes you happy. But just know we are here for you." Says my dad.

"Ok Dad. I love you both but I think I should get some sleep. G'night."

With this said my mom comes up to me and kisses my head and tells me she loves me and my dad follows suit and does the same.

AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hey my little ostriches! Hope you liked it. Comment! I want your opinions! Danny's POV on this will be next chapter but I honestly am so tired so I didn't have the energy to finish his POV right now. But I didn't wanna keep you guys waiting any longer than I have so I posted anyways. Remember I love you all so much. If you ever need anything I am always here. LOVE YOU ALL! Bye. Xx.

Love, Mama Ostrich