Through The Dark (Vol 2.)

Chapter 57

"I'll make this feel like home." 

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H a r r y

Watching Kay walk out of the guest house with out saying anything to her made me want to smack myself upside the head. I knew she was nervous about speaking to James, and I hadn't even given her words of comfort because of the sour mood I was now in at the thought of having to leave on Tuesday. The lads didn't seem to catch on, buzzing with excitement as they talked about writing in the studio that only left me feeling nostalgic. I lied on my back on one of the couch's large foot rests, staring up at the ceiling and rubbing my eyes with my knuckles when they continued to talk about all the work we had to do when we got back. A little part of me was just as excited as they were, but most of me felt...sad. 

I could feel the shift, the one that was going to come when we left and I just knew in my gut, that Kaydence wouldn't be leaving with us. She hadn't said anything, but I was apprehensive about her keeping her promise to never leave me again. We had been so happy with each other this past week and I knew the moment we left this place, things would drastically change. For the worse, or for the better? I had no idea. 

"You alright mate?" Niall nudged my leg with his foot and I tore my eyes away from the ceiling to see him staring at me with slight worry. The lads and I have seemed to fix things, after I spoke to them the other day while Kaydence had napped in the room. I apologized for the way I treated them this past year and they were so quick to forgive, and told me they were just glad to have the old Harry back. I was glad he was back too, and If Kaydence and I were to go separate ways again, I promised myself I wouldn't turn into the dick I was this past year again. 

"Yeah, just thinking." I shrugged and felt the couch I was lying on shift as Nicole sat next to me, her eyebrows furrowing. She knew something was up. 

"About?" She pressed and I bit down on my bottom lip, not sure If I felt like talking to her about it. 

"Lay your thoughts on us Harry." Liam piped from the other side of the room and I sighed when everyone began nagging me to tell them what I was thinking.

"I have a feeling she isn't leaving with us." I blurted out and Nicole frowned while the others gave me confused looks. 

"Why do you think that?" Louis asked slowly and I shrugged, throwing my arm back above my head. 

"I just feel it." I mumbled and Nicole nodded, sighing and playing with a loose fray on her shirt. 

"I know what you mean, I feel it too." She said quietly and I darted my eyes up to look at her, seeing that she looked just as sad as I felt. I knew if Kaydence stayed it wouldn't just affect me anymore, but Nicole too. They've become so close this past year, hell they fucking lived in a flat together. They were practically sisters. 

Nicole suddenly turned to give me a small reassuring smile, nudging my arm lightly with her hand. "If she does, we've got to be supportive. She's finally got a family, Harry." 

I gulp, knowing Nicole is right but for my own selfish reasons and needs I didn't want her to stay. I wanted her to come with me back to LA, I had been deprived of her for eleven fucking months and wanted to spend as much time with her as I could. But Nicole was absolutely right. Kaydence had other people who cared about her now, It wasn't just me anymore and her sisters and brothers had been deprived of her their whole lives. James just found out about her. How would it be fair for me to have her, when they haven't even gotten the chance to know the amazing, beautiful person she was? 

"I know, I will be." I said quietly. It would hurt to leave her here but who said we still couldn't be together? She'd come back to LA real soon anyways, that is if she even chose to stay for a few more weeks. It would be okay. It had to be.