I Won't Be Invisible Forever.

Chapter Five.

I'm honestly going to try to stop destroying myself. I never had a reason to before, but now I do. Reid Kennedy. He's my reason. Nobody has ever cared about me as much as he does. At first I thought he was pretending to care, because he didn't want to be responsible for my demise. But now I know he's being honest. His concern is genuine. He's the first guy who's ever noticed me. He makes me feel loved and wanted. I walked through the doors of the school that next morning feeling amazing. I walked down to my Spanish class to get some work done before classes began. I walked into the classroom to find Reid sitting at his desk with his head in his hands, sobbing.

"Mr.Kennedy?" I asked. I decided not to call him by his first name, just because it felt inappropriate. He looked up at me, quickly wiped the tears away, and plastered a smile on his face.

"What can I do for you, Desiree?" He asked, trying to sound cheerful.

"There's no need to fake it, Mr.Kennedy," I said softly.

"Fake what?"

I just looked at him to let him know that he wasn't fooling anyone.

"What happened?" I asked.

"It's nothing for you to be concerned about," he said, his voice wobbling.

"Are you sure you don't want to talk about it?"

I watched as he was about to cry again and I regretted asking that. I didn't want him to be upset. Now I know how he felt when I was upset.

"My wife and I.. we're getting a divorce.."

"I'm so sorry. Do you want to talk about what happened? It's not good to keep everything bottled up."

"We just got into another stupid fight. I don't even know what started it. We've been fighting a lot lately.."

"It's okay, Mr.Kennedy. I was once told that it'll all be okay in the end and if it's not okay, then it's not the end. You just have to keep your chin up. If she doesn't want to be with you anymore then that's her own problem because you are an amazing person. Don't let her get you down."

I was really bad at cheering people up, but apparently what I said made him feel better. He genuinely smiled at me and said, "Thanks, Desiree. I needed that."

I simply nodded and smiled at him, then took my seat. There was a good 20 minutes before classes started, so I got as much extra work done as I could in that time frame. Once there were only a few minutes left, I packed up my stuff and began heading out. I strongly hoped Reid would say something to me as I left, but he kept his head down and continued to do whatever he was doing. He seemed too caught up in what he was doing to notice that I was leaving. That was okay, as long as he wasn't thinking about his divorce. I felt bad for him, but for some odd reason I also felt a little bit happy. I wasn't happy that he was miserable about it, but I don't know why I felt the way I did. I was walking through the halls with my head down, thinking about the whole situation when someone bumped into me.

"Watch where you're going, bitch," Abby Garcia said to me.

"Why don't you?!" I snapped at her. I heard a whole bunch of people who were witnessing the situation gasp. Emily, the leader of their group walked up to me and backed me up into a locker. She leaned forward to whisper in my ear, "No one's here to save you. There's nothing you can do."

Before I knew it, Emily punched me in the mouth and all of her 'friends' were laughing along with her.

"Who's laughing now, Kavalari?! It sure isn't you!" she yelled, punching me in the stomach.

"Let's go, guys. We don't want to be late for class," Emily said in a snotty tone, leaving me crouching on the hallway floor, gasping for air. I wanted to tell her that I was never laughing, so there was no point in saying what she did. I'm sure I would have angered her even further if I had told her that, though. I hadn't done anything to her, but she never had a legitimate reason for hating me as much as she did. I was starting to feel better about myself. I was finally climbing out of the hole, but she pushed me back in. Metaphorically, of course. It would take some time to find my way back out again..

For the rest of the day, I was ignored which majorly brought my spirits down. Even Reid ignored me in Spanish class, which he normally doesn't do. I understood though, he was going through a tough time. He had enough on his plate to worry about. He didn't need my problems on top of his..

I struggled keeping my promise. I so badly wanted to harm myself, but I wouldn't give in. I would be strong for Reid. He was already going through a rough time. I didn't want to make it worse or make him frustrated. Even though it took quite a few nights of crying myself to sleep with a heart full of pain, I believe in the end, it would be worth it.He was worth it. I knew I could do it.