IS THIS A DREAM//adopted by Phan

Chapt. 5 Addison

CHAPTER 5

When we arrived home dan carried me into the house whilst everyone followed behind except phil he was in front of us opening the door prier to us walking in. Dan took me to his bedroom and layed me down on his bed i started to feel more tired after my horrible ordeal. "are you hungry sweety?" dan asked me "not particularly i'm just kinda tired" i replied as i didn't want to eat i mean sure i'm kinda hungry but 1. i'm too fat to eat and 2. it would just be a waste of food "ok sweety but when you wake up i'm making you eat something because i don't think you've eaten today have you?" dan asked i just shook my head 'no' dan sighed and tucked me in he kissed my forehead and left the room i could feel myself slowly drift into the unconscious world

*dream* (i recommend you listen to either fix you by cold play or how to save a life the fray whilst reading this part)

I was walking down the corridors of my school with my friend Addison she was my best friend we told eachother everything and when the bullies would confront me she was always there to help me out she got them to back off

My nice dream almost immediately turned into a horrible nightmare

I walked into Addison's house to get her, i had her spare key as i practically lived there when i didn't want to go back to the orphanage. I walked up to Addison's room only to find her on the ground a red liquid surrounding her,. slits along her wrists i began to cry and scream for help i ran over to the phone sitting on the dressing table i dialled 999 "what's your emergency" "my friend she cut her wrist i don't think she's breathing help" i sobbed down the phone "ok give me you location please" "189 walker St. Please hurry" i exclaimed

Within a flash my dream jumped "i'm so sorry but she was dead at the scene but we found this in her room it looks like a suicide note" a woman told me handing me a piece of paper. I scanned the paper that read

Dear Alex,

I know this is probably so hard for you to read but please forgive me. I didn't want it to end like this but it had to. I love you alex and SHE found out ad she tormented me. I couldn't tell you because well you know. Tell my parents that i loved them very much but i couldn't take it any longer. Don't be sad about me just forget about me move on with your life and if those bullies lay a finger on you just know that i will be haunting there sorry asses for an eternity i love you but i knew you couldn't love me back the same. Again please don't be sad

Addison XXX

*reality*

I woke up wailing Addison at what i had just experienced my brain tormenting me for not telling her the truth i'm the reason that she died i'm everything wrong in this world i should just kill myself.

Dan and Phil ran into my room in a panic dan saw i was crying he and phil then engulfed me in a giant hug "baby girl what's the matter" Phil spoke trying his best to comfort me "Addison she.. She's gone i loved her daddy she was my everything and i didn't tell her and now she's gone it's to late she told me she loved me and it was her dying wish for me to be happy but i can't because the only person who ever cared about me is gone she..she's gone dad i pretty much killed her because i didn't tell her " i sobbed hugging dan and phil tighter dan looked at me with worry in his eyes " Please dad just tell him before it's to late don't do what i did tell him now" phil looked at me confused "ph..phil i have something to admit." dan stated not looking up from his lap "go ahead" phil replied "ok.. Phil i love you and i don't care if you don't feel the same way as I've loved you since i was 18 i don't care if there is 4 years between us 'cause quite frankly you are the one who saved me you are the one who held me up when i was feeling down goddamit i love you!" dan exclaimed stumbling over his words phil looked taken back for a second then he realised what dan had just said phil got up off of the bed and move towards dan. He pressed a passionate kiss on dans lips "i love you too you quacksac i have loved you since i first met you" phil exclaimed "ok as much as i love seeing you too together do you think it a wise idea to be kissing in front of your daughter who has just told you about how she lost the love of her life" zoe spoke from the door way of the room "it's fine zoe really it makes me happy that they are together now dad told me about his feelings and i said i would do what ever it takes to get him and daddy together" i explained dan gave me a huge hug and kissed the top of my head "we love you, you know that and we support any of your life choices and i'm pretty sure Addison would want you to be happy not sad so how about we go out for ice cream also you're awake now and as i said your going to eat missy" dan exclaimed launching himself on me tickling my sides making me laugh "dad.. Nooo ..stoop" he didn't listen "daddy.. Help me" i whined laughing phil said "OK" however instead of helping me he just started tickling me as well. "ok i think she's had enough" zoe exclaimed dan and phil stopped tickling me finally "thank you zo zo" i laughed "it's alright munchkin someone needs to put these two in there place before they get themselves killed" she said.