❤ Hamari_Adhuri Kahaani ❤

Chapter 02 : Selfless love

Aayesha's POV

Hussain ,
I don't need to see you everyday to love you...
I love you more than that .
I don't need to speak to you daily...
I can love you the way we are...
This isn't enough...
But it is
I love you deeply...
Deeper than the selfish need of having you here..
Love this giving is more than you and I..

With the last few drops of tears I kept my pen down. I'm sorry Hussain for everything I've done . I know a single word will not vanish all the pain I gave you. Wherever you are I want you to be happy.

All these months me and my diary had lots of things to say to you. You are my heartbeat , you are my soul but we aren't destined to be together .

The feel that I don't deserve you makes me go insane . Love ; you were the one who showed me what was love , you made me live my life, every moment I lived with you..

No matter what, whether you are with me right now or not you are always in my heart. I know you will hate me for what I've done to you.I want you to hate me . I'll never be back in your life Hussain ; never again will I be in your life .

I tried a lot yet my tears betrayed me. Whenever I try to control it a fresh pair of new tears rolled down my eyes . All this pain and sufferings . They say time heals one's pain but no in my life every moment I live the pain in my heart grows worser .

Go away ..I never loved you..You were just a friend that's it.Yeah maybe I was too much with you at times .Even I thought I was in love with you. No I never fell in love with you.It was all a game Mr.Hussain Asif.

I never thought such a day would come in my life. I broke your heart into pieces which can never be mended again . I broke your heart ; I broke your trust of all I broke your love .

Even though love is described as the best feeling in the world, it is also capable of causing much sadness at times.I know that I must be crying in vain. I know nothing will change. But it is difficult to ignore the person I love and to move away. It is difficult for me to live without you Hussain.

Flowers need sunshine, violets need dew, all angels in heaven know I need you. Years may fly, tears may dry, but my love for you will never die.

With much difficulty I crawled on to my bed and hid myself under the blankets in search of sleep which I have lost in past months . Today I was lucky enough as I slept without my sleeping pills.
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The morning sunshine was peeping inside my room. I tried a lot to open my eyelids yet the efforts mattered a pin. I felt like 1000tons of weight was loaded in my eyes .

With much difficulty I rose up. I took my praying mat and went to pray to the Almighty, when you have problems the one whom you could always trust was Allah.

" Please keep everybody happy . May everyone get happiness in their life. Give Hussain all health and wealth he deserves . " When I pronounced his name unknowingly a pair of tears endured my eyelines.Masha Allah "

Then I rolled back my prayer mat . It is true that whatever the problem you have once you share it with Allah you feel less burden and was I . With that energy I thought of staring my work.

I had a bath. Dressed myself in blue jeans and a red tshirt. I applied some lip gloss and some eye liner because I always wanted to simple as I could. With the last look of myself in the mirror I got down .

I went into the kitchen and looked something for my breakfast . Nobody lives here , I live all by myself . Thanks for Mr.Khurrana . If not him I wouldn't have got a house to live and a job to earn money .