One Daisy Left

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Dear daisy,

Days ago i started to wonder why you left without saying goodbye.

How selfish that was,

That you just left without saying anything to me.

That's when i got out of bed, only to later find a letter.

From you, before you..left.

That went like this..

''Dear love,

I don't know how to start..

I am feeling so lost,

And i can't stop crying. I love you so much.

You, you are the reason i have stayed alive all this time

But i can't anymore...

I am so glad that i have you in my life,

But... I am sorry,

Because you will have to go through this.

Damn it, i fucking don't want to hurt you

But baby,

I can't take it anymore. This world.. My world, it is painful and cruel.

You, my love, is the only awesome, amazing, loving, caring, loyal, and most beautiful thing in my world.

And giving up on that is hard.

I don't want to make you go through more than what you already have.

I don't want you to have to worry about my problems.

I promise that i will be in a better place than on this earth.

Nothing can replace you, know that.

I love you so much, you're my world, my air, my sky, my whole fucking galaxy.

And yes, also my favorite galaxy chocolate.

You're so much, that i can't say or write how much you mean to me.

Because how much i will ever describe that, it won't be enough.

Please don't hurt yourself,

I know this is hard for you.

But i want you to know that i will be happier elsewhere.

And the only thing i am asking from you is

To try to be happy.

Which i know is really hard,

But please try for the happiness you will feel one day.

I will throw stars at anybody who will ever hurt you, make them understand that babe.

I hope you know,

If you are happy, I will be happy too.

GooBear, i love you so much.

Love, Ryan.''

....

First i smiled,

Then tears started streaming down.

Because you are the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me,

And because i lost my daisy boy that i loved more than anything and anyone.

More than myself..

Happy, not happy.