One Daisy Left

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Dear daisy,

2 years exactly has passed by since you left me to the underground.

I am feeling better, alot better than what i used to be.

I still miss you, and i still love you. I don't think i will ever stop loving you.

But i am okay, i am alright. Of course i have my moments where i don't want to get out of bed and cry myself to sleep but i am fine.

My family, they never understood what it was like. They said 2 words that never helped;people leave. 

As if i never knew, that people can be out of air. In both ways.

My friends tried really hard, to help me out. 

To make me feel better, but all they could say was to move on.

I met a boy.. He has hazel eyes, and a cute smile.

He almost remind me of you.

And i think i am in love with him, and he in me.

He makes me feel so good, makes me so happy. Just like you always made me feel.

I miss you so much, but i am also glad for you. You took the decision you believed you needed, and i guess i just need to live with that like i have been.

Well.

Do you know what i find funny?

How people only start to care when you're away.

They never pay attention when you are able to breath,

But only when they know it is too late.

I remember when you told me that people else than me never cared about you,

That you only were a daisy in a field of roses. That no one chooses daisies over pretty roses.

But i, i, Ryan, chose you over everybody when you were a living daisy.

There were many pretty roses around, but i chose you, my beautiful daisy.

Because i don't care if the whole world sees you like an un-importnant daisy,

No one can change the fact that you were my whole world.  You will always be.

I have been alright, Ryan. But i miss you so much, and this empty hole in my heart never seems to heal.

I will always have place for you, my gorgeous daisy. I will always remember you and

I will always love you, Ryan Malison.

Ryan Malison, 23 may 2013.

*Places a daisy on the grave*