Over the next couple of days Mathew and I fell into a routene . We spent time together in the mornings and ate breakfast together the Mathew would do his business and then come back . We would eat lunch together and go out if we wanted too or just stayed home then dinner rolled around and after that we bathed and went to bed.
I loved being with Mathew but sometimes I felt so useless becuase I was used to working. There was no way I could pass off as a real lady so there were no regular jobs for me after I had made a reputation at the brothel . So I just went on as i was trying to find contentment in Mathew alone.
Mathew had to leave on a business trip unexpectedly and so he put in place a body gaurd for me. His best friend from Texas. His name was Joel and he was rugged in a completely different way from Mathew. Joel was so dark . Joel had chocolate brown shaggy hair that had some wave to it along with a matching gotee. He was very handsome with dark brown rare eyes but I still thought Mathew looked more attractive. I didn't like Joel here becuase that meant he wasn't here with me .
I know that sounds needy but I think I have come to start loving him and not just becuase of his body. Sometimes it seemed like he loved me back. Like when we shared private sweet moments when he snuck a kiss or left me something special , waking up and immediately looking for the others face to make sure we were there. The way when sometimes I fell asleep he would pull the blankets over me then shortly he would crawl in bed too. We were never far apart from each other. I had never been this close to someone but right now it was a double sided blade. I didn't know I would miss him this much. I wonder if he is missing me?
