Troubled Soul

Numb

Sometimes I feel numb numb to the pain
Numb to the painful memories that remain
Those memories are reasons why my tears flow like rain
Stuck in my head playing over and over
My soul can never be free because I could never find closure
Every person I loved or trusted brought me pain one way or another
How could the one who gave me life betray me how could my mother
And how can my father hurt me before any man had the chance to
Barely remembering his face out of a picture because I never really had the glance to
No one to teach me how to love because I come from a broken home
Where my happiness was rare but I had a constant feeling of being alone
I didn't expect anyone to save me from my nightmare or attempt to understand
Because no one saw or tried to save me even after my nightmares began
I tried to paint this picture of me being normal without a dark mind
But then I think about it and I can't remember when I wasn't in a dark time
See the darkness of my mind became a place where I can sleep
Where the tunnel never ends it just gets darker as it gets deep