Rosesbushes (Lesbian story)

Secrets

         We headed out of the toilet, and I knew what I had to do, I had to call Lilian... Man how on earth was I going to do that? I mean she's one of my best friends, but still, I don't know how she'll react... I guess when everyone is comming out of the closet must feel the way that I'm feeling now, and I bet it'll be way worse with my mum... But I won't think about that now, because thinking about talking about it with just a friend already gives me goosebumps I don't even want to imagine talking to my mom... "Hey babe, you're spacing out, are you ok ? " Serana noticed that I was lost in my insane thoughts.. "Yea , sorry I was just wondering what I'm going to say and how... I'm scared " "I know how you feel, when I told said it out loud for the first time, it was for my mum.... I was so scared that I passed out" WOW... She sure is intense, the first person to know was her mother ? Damn, she sure is brave, and besides that... I don't know much of Serana's personal life... "Whoa, you were brave, I don't think I can face my mother now... It would be too much for her... And to me too." "Haha I know right, my mother reaction was better than expected , she supported me and hugged me tight when I woke up, she said everything was going to be ok, and that she loved me no matter whom I'd choose to share my life with me... But now you better call Lilian, remember what you told me, your mother will cook something good tonight, so Alyssa will be there too." I nodded and called Lilian, I was still not sure what I was going to say, and so my thoughts were interrupted by Lilian's voice "Hello, Alice?" "Hi, Lilian hey can you go to my house now? I'm still not there, but by the time you get there I'll be, please it's important." "Alright, I'll go, be there in 10." "Ok, see you there..." I hung up and realized Serana was staring at me. "What is wrong ? " "Nothing, it's just you are so beautiful, thanks for doing that babe." She kissed me on the cheek, I blushed slightly. "Haha, and so cute too, now let's get going".

          I arrived at my house, it was like just a 5 miunute walk from there, when we were at the door, Serana said she was going to leave, so Lilian and I would have some privacy, but I dind't want her to go, so I suggested that she'd stay at my mother's room. She was working, so she would be all by herself. She agreed and went upstairs when we got in. I had like 5 minutes before I heard a knocking on my door, I have to think how I'm going to tell her. After trying to calm down, I was still not sure how I was going to do that and find the courage too, but suddenly I heard Lilian's voice asking if I was home, oh boy... The time has come to tell the truth. I openned the door and let Lilian come in. "Hey bro , are you ok ? You look a little pale..." "Yeah .. yeah, would you like something to drink ? " "No, no , I'm ok, so what was so important that you coulnd't wait till tonight? " "Let's sit on my couch, we need to talk..." "Wow bro you should see you talking, never heard you get that serious before..." She was right, I was tense, it felt like I had no control over my body... "So... are you sure you're ok ? Your hands are shaking, and you're so tense..." "Yeah.. I'll be I think... I have to tell you something Li... That I dont know where to start..." "Well... calm down first, I'm not going anywhere... Take your time, and then tell me..." She was right I have to calm down first, I can't allow myself to pass out, like Serana did. I took a deep breath, that calmed the shit out of me.. "So... Lilian... Did you ever notice that I had no crushes... or never talked about anybody with you and Alyssa? " "Yeah, since the day I've met you, you've never mentioned any boys... Or anyone that you had a crush on" "Yeah... I was always like that... man I don't know how to say it.... I'm starting to sweat here... " I gave her a nervous smile "Well... just spit it out... Maybe its easier that way... Just like a band aid." Well... Let's give it a shot... I took a deep breath once again ... and let everything just get out as fast as I could "I've been like this since the day I've borned, and I never liked a boy because I like girls instead, and I have a crush on Serana." With that said I thought I'd die. I've covered my face with my tiny hands, just wishing that it would be over soon. "Hey... Alice.... look at me..." I dind't move, I was frozen " Hey... Alice... cmmon bro, look at me , please.." She was so calm, like it was no surprise for her, so I've rested my hands on my lap. "Bro... I know you for a long time, and I've always knew that you were into girls, but yesterday I was caught off guard when I saw Serana, I knew you two had something going on, and I confirmed it when I saw your hickey. " "So, you're ok with it ? " "Of course I'm ok with it Alice, I'm your friend, I love you no matter what, and besides, your sexual life is not my business , or mine to judge ... As long you're happy I'm happy, I can see how Serana makes you feel..." I had no words.... I was not believing what she has just said... "Come here, I think you need a hug now from your bestie " " HAHA , idiot, don't say 'bestie' sounds so immature haha" "I'm glad you're laughing again, I hate to see my Alice worried." We hugged but then I've remembered something. "WAIT, so ... You knew that, and why dind't you talk to me ? And you covered the hickey, why ?" "Whoa calm down ... Well first, I had no right to talk to you about that... it's your life, and besides, by the time I've realised I think you haven't accepeted it in your heart, so it would be not good/cool to talk about it with you... " "Wow... thats true... thanks Lilian you're a true friend... I love you!" "Haha... Ah and second... I covered your hickey because I know how Alyssa is with lesbians... She's doesn't like them at all.. So she would beat up Serana or fight with you if she saw that... Oh and I have something to tell to you too... Now that you are ok with those things..." "What ? those things... ? I'm confused." "Well Alice... the fact is... I'm bissexual, so I do girls and boys... mostly girls but yeah... " I was shocked, I would never imagine that Lilian would kiss girls too!!!! "Omy... I'm speechless ... For how long did you know ? " "Well.. like you said, for like forever... I rather go out with girls but sometimes I kiss guys too... " "But hey, you are always with me and Alyssa, where did you kiss a girl ? " "Well... sometimes I lie that I will stay at home, but actually I go on dates, I've just kissed 3 girls, I've met them on tinder, an dating app... it's really cool." "Haha, thats cool, I'm glad that you know how I feel..." "Yeah... I know how hard is to hide it... but now you know that you have a buddy to talk to whenever you want... Things about the heart and about boobies too... hahahahaha" I was not believing that Lilian was bi, that was so perfect to be true! " Hahaha, yeah boobies are the best... Hey Serana is in my Mother's room, let's go get her, she's waiting." "Alright , hey about Alyssa don't worry, I won't say a word, cuz you know... I got your back and you got mine." "Haha, deal... I still feel bad about it ... But well sometimes it cannot be helped... " "Yeah it's a shame ... I'm dating this girl, and I wished that I could bring her here tonight... But given the circustances I can't.. but whatever.. I can survive one night..." "Whoa whoa... Lilian the hooker ... " " Haha stop that... "

       I've opened the door and Serana was standing up in the middle of the room.. "Why dind't you sit on my mother bed? " "Nah... It's your mum's I cant come here and sit on her bed... So..." "So... Lilian knew it all along.... " "Haha, I told you it would be ok, Hey Lilian whats up ? " "Hey Serana, so now we're all hiding I guess... " "What does she mean by that? " "Oh... well ... " I've looked at Lilian's face, and she slightly nodded "Lilian is Bi... So she's on the same boat as us... " " Whoa... I knew it! There was something weird about her that I couldn't tell what it was, but now I know , hahaha. " "Well Serana, I guess our 'Gaydar' doesn't make mistakes... " I looked confused at them while they laughed... " 'Gaydar' is what we have, deep inside our souls, to recognise other gays girls, haha, your 'gaydar' is still new, so don't worry, in no time you'll be good as me and Lilian... " I laughed hard, 'Gaydar' haha , it was funny. We've started to chat and laught a lot... Always talking about things in the gay world, I never imagined that Lilian was so funny, she has a good sense of humor to dirty things. Now I don't have to worry with her anymore... Just with Alyssa and my mum tonight... It would be hard to not make any comment with Lilian or Serana involving those things... Now I feel that I can talk about it with everyone, but unfortunately it's not true... Tonight will be tough...