Rosesbushes (Lesbian story)

Why things need to be THIS hard?

      Alice P.O.V

         Okay so what should I do now? I'm here facing my best friend and I really have no idea how to phrase anything, I'm just a mess. I'm terrible at coming with good answers, I don't even know how I have friends. So that's probably the reason I don't really want to lose them (and of course because I love them! Don't picture me as some kind of cold bitch okay?). "So Um... How are we going to do this? Right here at your front door?" Alyssa shook her head and rolled her eyes. "When I finally build up the courage to tell you, you sound like you're making fun of me." I saw that Alyssa was really hurt. "Al, I'm sorry I didn't want to sound like that, I just mean like, isn't it better if we talk inside ? Or in your room, I just want you to feel comfortable since it's something important, I have the whole day just for you." She can be really stubborn and she loses her temper really easily. "Oh okay. But don't make fun of me or I'm gonna punch you with my feet." She always want to sound like she's really tough but she is just a small bean, besides how can someone punch people with their feet? " I'm pretty sure that's called kicking but sure."  "Just come inside and follow me before I change my mind." She sounds rude and annoyed but she loves when I do this, I could see a smile on her lips, she needed this, whatever that she has to tell me, it's keeping her awake and stressed, I just want to see she happy. 

       We went inside her house and she decided to guide me to her meeting rooms, yeah she has one of those, apparently her mom built a room for business meetings with her clients in her house, if that's not being important I don't know what it is. " It's been a while since I've been to your important room, but I could never figure out what is that painting, is it modern art? Because it doesn't look like anything." It was indeed a weird picture, mainly pastel colors, pink and red mostly, I tried to look at different angles but it never helped. "Yeah I guess, I don't really like this room but the chairs are comfy so we're doing it here." Sounds good to me, we sat down and god all of this for nothing, still I need to know what's going on, the wait is killing me. "Al, now tell me what's going on? You look horrible, it feels like you didn't sleep for 4 days, and you've been treating everyone and especially me in such a weird and rude way, I'm your friend I want to see you happy." She took a deep breath. "Look I'm, I'm just going through a lot of shit alright? Things... Yeah some things happened that reminded me of other things that happened to me before." Okay now I know everything and understood too. " Okay so, first what kind of things happened, let's start with that what do you think?" Alyssa shook her head. " I'm ... I don't want to talk about that. What I could perhaps do is talk about my flashbacks. If ... If I'm able to." I felt emphaty towards her, god I've never seen her like this. I put my hand on her hand to reasure her she could trust me. "Okay I guess there's no escape now..."

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Alyssa P.O.V

         Jesus christ there's no way I could tell this fucker about my personal life! I always try to not mention anything at all, but she does seem worried about me. And ? Common Alyssa you used to be tougher than that. You swore you wouldn't tell anyone, now I'm going insane arguing with myself inside my mind. Alice is stubborn, way more than me when she wants something, she won't leave me alone, and she is my best friend, I should tell her. But I can't oh god ... that's so hard and so stressfull. Here we are at the meeting room of my fucking mother, and I just can't keep my promise anymore, fuck you mom, fuck you Alyssa, fuck you Serana... and fuck you Michelle and most importantly fuck you Helena.

         I had so many trouble in trusting women again, and when I thought I could trust and have friends they, they just prowl and throw a knife on my back. Alice is fucking stupid, she thinks I don't know what is going on with her and THAT girl. She isn't like this she is innocent and pure, she has no idea how lesbians can be, how dangerous and how much they can hurt you.