If someone were to ask me who is the love of my life.
Hell, I wouldn't give them the actual name just the initials.
J.W.F.
J as the brand of shoes.
W as Shakespeare.
And F as what creatures live underwater or who is the type of man that "hunts" for those underwater creatures.
Why do I love him you ask?
I could count the ways, but I haven't even made a list of them yet.
Let me just tell you what's so amazing about him that makes me swoon to my knees because of him.
He's an angel. Literally an angel sent from heaven by God and He said, "I will bless y'all everyday for I am sending down one of my children to swoon you." Something like that. And I believe he is one of the talented people out there in the new generation of stars today. He's an angel, he's a shining star, he is an absolute child of God and a gift from God, too. I believe being around this spiritual creature literally blesses you in some kind of way, form, shape, or fashion. You don't really get to see much of this from someone everyday on a daily basis and I'm glad to. I'm glad he's here on this earth, I'm glad he's here to stay and I'm glad that there are so many doors being opened to him so that he can spread his wings and soar free.
When he talks about self-love I agree with him every way possible.
I don't just only agree with him because I'm madly in love with him, I agree with him because it took me years to love myself. I hated almost everything about me while also thinking I was the perfect person in the room when I knew I wasn't especially when people pointed out my flaws for me, it was hard. I hated my hair, my teeth, the permanent scar that's on my forehead, my chest, the size of it, how wide and short my torso is, my hands, my feet, the tiny permanent scars that on my legs, my eyebrows, my eye color, I hated nearly every single feature of my body.
And then you know, a homegirl started to discover cocoa butter and started to have a fashion sense and started wearing everything nearly a size or two up to make sure I wasn't suffocating, suffering or sulking. Homegirl started to take care of her eyebrows in the cleanest and easiest and less painful way possible by tweezing them every other day as well as filling them in if I had to. Homegirl started to embrace her natural hair and understood the reason why her mother put her hair in rollers all these years. Homegirl started to take care of her body and watch what she ate and what made her shit green and what didn't. Homegirl started to ignore all the tiny scars on her body because they represented battle scars. Some of them I don't even remember how they gotten there but it didn't matter because it was almost like as if I was a warrior and nothing was too rough and tough for me. I started to be happy and wear what I want and mix up what I had and embrace everything and whatnot because it was who I am.
And I know for a fact that I can't just stick to one thing when I am deeply interested in so many other things. That's why I kinda had to pick and choose and knew what was right for me and what suited me and what would make me happy . And a lot of things really did make me happy and without them I would feel lost and confused like something was missing. So that's one of them main things of learning to love yourself. There are gonna be some flaws you can fix and that are easily to fix like eyebrows for instance. And there are going to be other things were you can't really change or that takes time to change like scars on your body or even your teeth. You have to learn to appreciate and accept those flaws and embrace them. Some people will say some dumb shit about them. But you have to remember, everyone's entitled to their own opinion only if you asked for it. So if they say dumb shit about something you didn't ask them to say about then literally all they're saying is some dumb shit.
