I'm living the life where I'm on a schedule, but every week it changes. The hours change.
Two months ago, I was on a mission as to where to put myself out there as much as possible so that I can build myself a name and a career while I was currently working. If that makes any sense. I have a job with an amazing company, but to jump start myself within the position of where I wanted to be in the company, I wanted to make something and a name for myself to put myself out there so others can reach me and so that I can possibly be an easy reach for that company as well or many others.
And now I have three months until I'm supposed to revert back to my old hobby and I've yet to learn what I have to rehearse because somehow I forget and feel like I don't have enough time for it. I planned to do so many things and I'm no longer living by a routine but by random schedules and I have so much going on that I fee like I don't have the time for and I'm breaking.
I'm becoming broke.
I feel myself breaking from who I am, what I try to positively be.
I'm breaking promises.
I'm breaking promises to myself.
