Phan One Shots

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Wow I am a mess of fandoms if you can't tell. I'm also MCR, P!ATD, FOB, and TØP trash, also Phan trash, and a bitch. I'm super proud of myself a lot of the time even though I shouldn't be. Where is this going I'm a mess help.

So this is a thing.

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Dan was just starting at his new school. He didn't know what it would be like and he was fucking nervous. What if everyone hated him? He shook off that thought as he hopped out of bed.

He dug through his box, he hadn't had time to unpack yet, and pulled out a black shirt with a white circle, and some black Jeans. He walked into the bathroom and did a fringe check before putting on a beanie and brushing his teeth. He wasn't hungry and decided to skip breakfast.

Dan grabbed his bag and went to catch the bus. After a couple of silent minutes of playing on his phone awkwardly while two other random kids stood near him the bus rolled up. He took a deep breath and walked on after the other kids. The only seat left was beside a kind of nerdy looking boy with big glasses. But he was really attractive.

Dan was closeted to most adults but a lot of his old friends knew. His mom had passed away but his homophobic drunk dad was barely taking care of him. (A/N I just watched the Blue Neighborhood music videos and I can't.)

But Dan was suffering from depression and anxiety. In good news he was a week clean. A new town, a new start. He had sat down and the bus had started moving. "Hi." Said a voice, the boy next to him had spoken. "I'm Phil, Phil Lester. You must be new." He said to Dan. "Yeah I just moved here. My name's Dan, Dan Howell."

"You'll like it here. There's no bullying and the classes are great, plus there are so many cool clubs to join. I see you have a pride bracelet?" He pointed to the rainbow bracelet Dan had gotten from one if his old friends.

"Yeah. I'm hella gay." Dan laughed.

"Me too! You should join GSA!" Phil exclaimed excitedly.

"Join what?" Dan asked

"GSA it stands for Gay Straight Alliance but it's mostly gays, bisexuals, and people questioning their sexuality." Phil smiled.

"I'd love too it sounds great!" Dan replied. He mentally slapped himself, had he sounded too excited? Did Phil just feel sorry for him? He tried to shake these thoughts and focus on his phone.

The ride to school was quiet other than a few conversations with Phil. "I have to go sign in at the office." Dan told Phil.

"I'll come with you." Phil replied.

"Really? You don't have to-"

"I want to." Phil smiled at Dan and he felt his heart beat fast. Great a crush on a guy he had just met. They reached the office and Phil talked to ten secretary for Dan.

"She said I can show you around." Phil said cheerfully. Dan smiled back and they went off on a tour. Phil showed Dan all the classrooms and washrooms, the library, and the theatre. By that time it was already lunch. Probably because they continued to stop and tell stupid stories.

"This is the cafeteria." Phil said, showing Dan the caf, it was packed with people. "I don't usually eat lunch here." He told Dan.

"Where do you eat lunch?" Dan asked.

"Well come and have lunch with me and you'll see." Phil replied cheerfully.

Dan smiled at his new friend and followed him to the theatre. They walked in and Phil lead Dan to the stage. He hopped up and held out his hand to Dan to help him up.

Dan grabbed his hand and climbed up onto the stage. Phil walked to the middle and sat down. Dan followed him and they sat in the middle together. It was as if they had known each other their entire lives.

They talked for all of lunch and they were late for third period. They had geography together along with Science and English this term. The geography teacher didn't really care what her class was doing so they sat at the back and watched Brendan Urie from Panic! At The Disco telling the history of Fall Out Boy while he was drunk. (A/N Go look Brendan Urie drunk history of Fall Out Boy it's great.)

They found that they both really liked Fall Out Boy and Muse. Then Dan showed Phil the Fall Out Boy movie which was forty five minutes of beauty and amazing music. (A/N go watch that too, Young Blood Chronicles.)

But soon the period was over. They didn't have the last period together but Phil said he'd see Dan tomorrow because as said before, they had three of the four classes together.

Dan barely stayed awake all math class. He was just thinking of his day with Phil so far. He had literally fallen in love after one day, how does that happen? He didn't want to scare Phil off after just meeting him so he decided to just never tell Phil his feelings for him.

Math was finally over and he got all his things from his locker, he went and got on the bus. Phil soon came on and sat next to him. "Thanks for showing me around today." Dan said.

"No problem. It was fun hanging out with you." He said. They chatted again on the way home but then Dan had to get off. "See you tomorrow!" He exclaimed.

Dan walked into his house and grabbed a bag of Maltesers. He sat on the couch and watched Netflix on his phone. He was there until 9:18 when his father came stumbling in.

He had a bottle of vodka and looked angry. (*WARNING SWEARING AND VIOLENCE*) "Fucking... Fag.." He mumbled. Dan looked at him with an alarmed expression. How had he found out.

"I was havin a drink with one of the boys and he was sayin how his kid had been datin this fag "Dan" and then he showed me the kids facebook an it was MY OWN FUCKIN SON WHO IS A COCK SUCKING FAG!!" He screamed.

"Dad-"

"DON'T YOU DARE CALL ME YER FATHER YOU ARE NO SON OF MINE YOU FUCKIN FAGGOT GET OUT!!" He roared, pointing at the door.

"But-"

"GET YOUR SHIT AND GET OUT OF MY FUCKING HOUSE!!" He yelled, throwing the vodka bottle at Dan's head, it smashed against the wall and shattered.

Dan ran upstairs and grabbed the box of his essentials and then ran downstairs and out the door.

He ran down the street and then slowed to a walk. Where was he supposed to go? He walked into he found a park bench. He put his box on the bench and sat beside it.

Dan rummaged through his box of stuff and grabbed a small box from the bottom of it. He opened it and grabbed a blade. He pulled up his sleeve and ran the metal across the scarred skin, leaving a trail of red behind. He did it again, and again until there were cuts all up his forearm.

There was suddenly a sound of footsteps that stopped suddenly. Then there were fast footprints and someone approached Dan. "Dan?! Oh my god are you okay?! What happened?!" It was Phil.

Phil looked at Dan's arm as drops of blood dripped onto the ground. "Dan why did you do this to yourself?" Dan just let a tear slide down his face, and another, and soon he was crying. Phil just brought him into his arms and hugged him. And Dan sobbed. He didn't care if Phil would judge him. He didn't care about anything. He just let all his bottled up emotions go.

And Phil rubbed his back and told him it would be okay. And that he would be there. Dan slowly calmed down. He eventually pulled away and looked into Phil's eyes and Phil looked so sad for Dan. "I love you Dan. It's been one day, but I love you." He said quietly.

Dan smiled. "I love you too Phil. I really do." Phil leaned in and they kissed and it was passionate and loving but not lustful. And although he would need a lot of help to get better, Dan was okay for now.

And okay was good enough.

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Depression is shit and please get help. Don't just "deal with it" get help. Slicing your skin open doesn't help with anything. Take it from me and get help. Please.

If anyone EVER needs to talk and I am not just saying this my kik is keekeebeary112 and my instagram for DM is shut.the.fuck.off I swear if you need to talk I'm here for you and I mean it.

~PINOF7 TOMORROW