Confessions of Brashton

Chapter 13: What About Me?

I see people everyday in relationships like all the time.

WHAT ABOUT ME?!!!!???

I mean think about how is it that everyone else has a boyfriend or girlfriend and I am sitting here saying "I like Nicki Minaj!!!." I do not understand love. I have crushes on a bunch of people but my main crush is Brayan. Most of my crushes are guys because all the girls at our school are hoes. I will never understand why all the hot guys have to be taken or straight. If I heard one thing about Brayan being gay, I would probably ask him out. I am just saying. He is that hot. I love his personality.

WHAT ABOUT ME?!!!!???

Think about I am not crazy. I mean I am not too crazy. I am not ugly. I am nice to almost everyone.

That last sentence was a lie.

I have a more real friends than probably anybody. Everyone talks about being popular is the best thing that there is but too me I think that having friends you trust with your heart is the best route to go. People are backstabbers and I want them to know that I trust only a certain amount of people.

What is it about me that people do not like?

I have not harmed anybody. I mean I might have hurt someone's feelings but that is because they mess with me or my friends. I consider myself a smart, independent, young boy who wants his crush to fall in love with him.

Is that to much to ask?

Love is the thing that is the hardest for me to find. I mean it is hard to find someone that likes you for who you are and does not care about any of your flaws. I want someone who will not try to fix me.

I AM NOT BROKEN!!!!!

I want to have someone who cares about me. I want someone who is funny, smart, hot, and has the best personality ever. That should not be to hard to find. Out of all the people in the world there must be some people that are like that. Those are the reasons I have a crush on Brayan. I think that he is all those things. He is nice to me but if he found out about my feelings I am not to sure about. I would hope that he would except me for me and not for who he thinks I should be. I think that everyone deserves love but it is so stressful that no one wants to date you. I wish for that one day when he actually approaches me and ask me out or something like that. I know that it will never happen but it is always good to wish. Wishing is what keeps people alive. It gives them hope for the future. Everyone has love except me. So let me ask you this: What About Me?