Seiji

Eleven

Eleven: Party, Sister, Secrets

I heard coughing in the middle of the night. I woken up quickly, and ran towards the bathroom, which was where I heard the coughing. I quickly barged the door open, and Tsukasa had his hands over his mouth. Blood dripped out from between his fingers, hitting the tiled floor.

My eyes were shot wide opened at the horror in front of me. I was too scared to go near him. His eyes were streaming with tears. "Seiji, don't look. Go back to bed." He said while choking on his own saliva, and blood.

I quickly backed away, and ran towards the phone to call for help. I didn't know what to do. I was horrified, scared, and lost. God help him please.

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The ambulances brought him to the emergency room. I stood by his side in the ambulance. He was unconscious, and so was my brain. I didn't know what to think. I didn't want my brother to die. Not yet.

"Do you know what he has?" The paramedic said to me. He was sitting in the back with me, and Tsukasa.

"Leukemia."

"Does he now?" He looked at me questionably. "It seems more like cancer to me if I had to be realistic."

Cancer....that word altogether made me scared. I didn't want my brother to have any of that. I looked down at his unconscious body on the stretcher. He looked so peaceful yet sad.

The ambulance pulled up into the driveway, and Tsukasa was rushed into the building. I had to stay in the waiting room. The wait was dreadful.

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"You may come in now?" A nurse said to me. I could feel my brain shutting down. It was 3:00 in the morning, and I was barely awake.

I walked into the room. Tsukasa had a bunch of needles in his arms, and those things to help you breath. I didn't know all the medical things, but I hoped somehow they will make him well again. I knew it wouldn't.

"Seiji!" He smiles happily.

I bit down on my lip. How can he be smiling right now? I went up to him, and slapped him across the face. He looked surprised, and hurt.

"Tsukasa! How can you keep smiling like this?! I was so scared!" I screamed.

He touched his cheek. "But how can I not smile when you are the first thing I see when I wake?" He looks at me tiredly.

I moved closer, and got on my knees. I took his hand in mine, and cried into his palm. "Stop being so nice to me....it will make it harder for me to let you go." I sobbed.

"Seiji....no...don't..." His voice begins breaking. I could tell he was crying too.

"I don't want you to be so perfect. I...I...can't let you go...." I weeped.

"I'm right here...I'm not going anywhere." He strokes my hair.

"Mmmmnnnh you will leave me soon....I can feel it...." I cried harder, and grasped his hand tighter.

"No...."

I didn't remember much that night. All I could remember was me crying like no tomorrow. I couldn't accept what was unfolding before my eyes. It was too much.

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Tsukasa returned home, and Shoko stayed with us. It was good to have company when it was such a horrific time.

"Thanks for staying." I said to her. I had to fill out college applications so I couldn't focus too much on Tsukasa.

Tsukasa sat on the couch watching television. I was sitting on the other couch so I could keep a close eye on him. Shoko sat on the other couch with the foot rest. She enjoys hogging that particular couch which I don't blame.