Seiji

Twelve

Twelve: Tense, Fooled, Dying

"How was school?" Tsukasa said with a smile on his face.

I couldn't smile at him. The thought of him keeping something from me bothered me to my core. What was wrong with me? Why did I feel so strongly about him not telling me something? I must look like some brat in his eyes if I were to have told him what it was that I was actually feeling.

"Fine I guess."

"Is everything okay? You seem to have something on your mind." He puts his chopsticks down, and looks at me.

"I'm fine." I didn't want to ask him. I rather him come clean, and tell me. The only thing that triggered my anger was the fact that I knew it was a long term girlfriend.

"You sure?"

"Yes."

The door bell rung, and Tsukasa went to get the door. I noticed it was Takumi already. I could distinguish his voice by now.

"Tsu!" He hugs him. "Having dinner?"

"Yes, want to join?" He says happily. They looked awfully happy. Takumi probably is happy for Tsukasa, and his new girlfriend, and I am here left in the dark.

"Sure why not." He goes over to set the bag he brought down on the couch. He whispers something to Tsukasa, and Tsukasa nods happily.

"Hey." I said to Takumi.

"Hello Seiji. Has Tsu been good?" He chuckles.

"Yep."

"Are you alright? You seem bothered."

"I'm fine."

"Brother, if something is up, we are willing to hear you out." Tsukasa rubs my back.

"When will you get a girlfriend?" I asked without fear.

Takumi, and Tsukasa looked at each other, and then at me. "Seiji, I don't think it's reasonable for me to have a girlfriend. You already understand that don't you?"

He's a liar. I wanted to fight back, but I never wanted to cause any emotional distress to Tsukasa. I was stuck.

"Fine." I gave up. I didn't feel like arguing anyway.

Tsukasa had the face of guilt, and I noticed instantly. Maybe he's scared to confront me in front of his friend. I'll just ask him afterwards.

"The building is looking great, and I came up with more great products. I just needed to know if you are going to the lab tomorrow." Takumi starts talking to Tsukasa about work, and I tuned them out.

I left the room, and went upstairs to my room. Hearing him just annoyed me. Why couldn't he be honest with me? I should be the closest to him.

I heard the door closing downstairs, and I went to peek. They were both gone. I guess they went to hang out.

I am acting like a baby. I constantly need Tsukasa to be looking, and paying attention to me. Why am I so sick?

I walked to Tsukasa's work room. It was clean as usual, and his scent filled the room. Why did Tsukasa spray so much cologne every time?

I went over to his laptop, and noticed his laptop wasn't locked. Figures. I would know his password anyway.

I went over to sit in front of the laptop, and started clicking the photos icon. I saw a few pictures of the company, his works, me and him, and him and that girl.

I clenched my fist as I zoomed in. The girl wore heavy makeup, and had light brown hair. She was cute. I couldn't deny that.

I saw pictures of Tsukasa kissing her cheek, and embracing her. The sight made me depressed. He will soon spend all his days with her. He might be doing that now. Did Takumi introduce them? Why didn't he tell me? So many questions filled my mind.